Silence is not always golden...

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good day everyone =)

Few weeks have past since the start of semester holidays. besides that, my siblings will be joining me on their upcoming two month school holiday as well in which will start next week. Nothing much is going on actually accept a few events that got me kind of busy.

Anyways i would like to wish my grandmother and uncle (the one from my father's side) a very happy birthday. Believe me, both mother and child were born on the same date and month but different in years(^_^)...May Allah bless u guys always & may u have many prosperous life years ahead.

I still haven't receive any news regarding my practical training and furthermore, i can't seem to reach the person in charge. Did they change the number already? Gosh, all the waiting is making my heart pounding like crazy. At least, they should call and say if i need to make another resume, that's fine. I do not care in which company i will be working because to me the only thing for me to do now is to go for practical training. Regarding the company, If i am accepted, then that means that i am already ahead of schedule. which is good by the way. Oh, almost forgot. I receive information regarding the final examination result will be out either on the 8 November 2012 or 15 November 2012. I pray may i never repeat any subject again. (>.<)... Really2. i want to graduate with a peaceful mind!!

Being accepted is another thing. I just hope..really2 hope that all preparation goes well. Seriously, the silence is killing me!....Say it.... If the company does not accept me, its alright. It's not the end. I'll find other places to do my practical training. Is that hard to say? hurmmmm.....(-_-.).... Thinking about it make me feel more down and i don't want this to get to me either. I'm a rather sensitive person but not to the high extent.

(Sigh).... Will i be able to graduate? Wallahualam.... Kun faya kun... I leave the rest for Allah to decide for he is the best provisions for all of us. His will i must accept and his rules i will obey...

All in all....I just hope that all goes well....till then dear readers....

Wasalamualaikum....

Back Again :D!!

Assalamualaikum & Good Day dear readers (^_^)!!!!

Alhamdulillah, after a few weeks of harsh examinations finally the long awaited semester holiday arrives!!. I can totally focus on what i want to do from now. But, there is also a flaw. Recently i asked my juniors regarding whether or not they received any news regarding the place of their choice for practical training. I was quite worried when quite a number of people had already got their permissions from the company of their choice to undergo practical training since i have not yet received any news about the place i choose. Other than that, there are a few students who are in the same position as i am but we try not to let those news bring our hopes down.

I applied back at my old place but there seemed to be no reply. I did not want to pressure anyone especially my lecturer because she will be giving birth. As expected she is already taking maternity leave and i wonder to whom we should contact. The last time I see my lecturer was two weeks before the final examination. My sister told me that the first thing that i should do is go to my academic adviser for help. The thing is she too is not present. (Sigh).... This are a few things that i wish to avoid during holidays. Thinking about it gives me more stress than examination. To add to my misery, she told me if  I don't act quick, I might do my practical training in campus! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

For nine semester I'm stuck in one place. this will be my last and I do not plan to stay there again.(>.<) (SIGHHHH).... This will be my fifth and last year before i can really graduate. I want to move on as well. I pray to Allah Taa'la that may all goes well after this. I hope to receive a feedback from either my academic adviser or my lecturer.

The rest that happen throughout the month I'll leave it for the picture to tell. As they say, picture is worth thousands of words....enjoy :)

The end of ECO120 test :DD. Actually this pic kita curi2 ambik

Presenting, the all you can cook rice cooker. ngehx3

Here's a story to tell. Actually its an ordinary rice cooker that my friend got from her brother. She bought it inside the hostel so that we can cook something. Besides, we were in a tight financial position since everyone did not receive their allowance yet. The rice cooker is one of the few electrical appliances that students in my campus cannot bring into the hostel. Well, some students do not exactly follow the rules. Don't blame me, i'm no the one who bought it. I was actually quite worried since there have been blackouts happening recently in our block. Due to that, the college authorities started to spot check one room after the other. Our room was no exception and to add to the panic mode, the people in the room did not pay for the electrical appliances for this semester.

Masha'Allah, my heart was beating rather fast as i heard their footsteps coming. My friend's eyes widen and the both of us quickly hide all the necessary stuff before the authorities come. I was an illegal student and i do not want my friend to take the blame for bringing an illegal to stay in the hostel. (There are currently five people in one room..when there is actually suppose to be two). I took my friend's book and pretended to study for examination. The funny thing is, my friend is not in the same course as i am. I am an office student whereas she is a political science. hahahaa... you can imagine me trying to memorize political studies book in which by the way is not my field. The authorities questioned my friend a lot and the other one searched about the room for any high voltage appliances. Because the lady questions too much i sort of bud in by pretending that i had lost all my ideas that i was suppose to answer for the upcoming exam in the afternoon. Due to that, they let us go and went to the next room. Alhamdulillah....we manage to escape. Fewwh!!

After that incident my friend brought back the rice cooker home. That was indeed scary and i have never felt so alarmed in my life. Lesson learn here is always pay the electrical appliance when you have to. No need for me to worry about that since they do not give hostels to part eight and above anyways. Scary but funny. My friends actually laugh for my act. they say it was a close call. If i did not bud in, they probably will be kicked out.

hahahahaha(>.<,)...our 'lesung batu' also known as mortar. we do not have the exact one so this is the best that we can come up with

Product Done! Our Nasi Goreng Belacan for dinner..Nyumx3...jom makan2 :D

 We made all sorts of dishes using the rice cooker. The one above is nasi goreng belacan. I made some porridge while my friend cook nasi goreng kampung for us in the morning. Believe it, we're actually full after eating them.

The Bilik Simulasi Pejabat. A mess with my account notes!! huhuhuu... By the way, this desktop has also been the very one that i use for almost three years in campus. My favourite spot :) Going to miss it though...

Late night study. There is a boat race happening on that day and mother bought all of us to the hotel to see it from above. I have no time to see it... but my siblings are certainly enjoying it. Kinda envied them. Study first, relax later... Chaiyok!!

The Sarawak Regatta

I was studying for ECO120 because i have a test on the next morning. The uncomfortable thing was, my sister persuade me (more like begged) to sleep with her at her rented house. There were other student there as well. the first and the last i will sleep there. (T_T)... Plus, some of them were quite noisy

Wacana Cinta: Dia Untukku...

Syukur Alhamdulillah, i get to come to a forum where my favourite author was one of the speaker. The speaker is Ustazah Fatimah Syarha and her husband Dr. Farhan. The information is quite useful but the only thing is i cannot hear much when her it was her husband's turn to speak because his voice is a little low. Maybe because i was sitting at the back? I arrived kind of  late that time and had to use the back door to enter. It was my first time coming to the Faculty of Medicine and Health Science of University Malaysia Sarawak. The forum was quite wonderful but i missed getting her autograph because a friend of mine borrowed the book. Oh well, a picture will do...:D

Me and Ustazah Fatimah... Jazakillah ya ustazah..:DD

Snap2..:)

All thanks goes to them. my roommates for this semester. I give them my thanks and May allah forever bless all of you in you journey in this world. I pray that may all of you graduate with success. Byebye guys. Good luck for the exam results!!

Never want to experience that pain again...alamatnya jangan gelabah..

 Aduh2...cobaaan before exam. I accidentally sprained my ankle. The story goes like this. After I finished washing my clothes and other laundries, i thought of hanging them outside since the day is sunny and good. As i walked down the stairs, i saw a technician walked out from the first floor level door. Then i heard the college authorities voice coming. I  was an illegal and I don't want to be catch especially by them. My mistake was I sort of panicked and then comes the pain. My dismay comes as they gathered to see what bumpy noise they heard. They asked if i was okay and i nodded (The pain hurts!!!). as they walked away, i quickly hang my clothes outside and rushed back into my room. I placed some ointment to ease the pain. The pain on my ankle is gone but the pain on my back hurts till now. I really need to see a doctor after this...(-___-'') (sapa suruh kecoh...ni la akibatnya. dahlah nak exam.) cobaan...

The end of ACC100 final exam. nie pun gambar curi2.

Had a chance to go to the beach!! :D i went here with my family the day after i finished my ACC100 final exam

 Well, that's all from me to you on the updates during the end of September and the month of October. I'll try to write more soon. Till then dear readers...:D

Wasalamualaikum...

Examination & nearing the end of ninth semester

Assalamu’Alaikum & Good Day Everyone (^_^)

Been busy lately since the month of final exam is just around the corner. All of the diploma students will be starting our final exam on the 2^nd of October 2012. I hope to nail this one because if I fail I have to repeat another semester. I certainly don’t want that to happen. My last hurdle for the ninth semester is Economics and Accounting.

Alhamdulillah, things are getting better but tough at the same time. I don’t mind since I like challenges. The thing is, I have to put in extra more effort to get my CGPA up. (Sigh). I know it’s not going to be an easy one but hey, it’s better to do something about it rather than nothing. All my life, I never achieve something great unlike all the people inside my life. All in all, it takes passion and mostly effort. I do not want to be labeled as the senior who repeated again and again in my life existence! I also want to be like everyone else.

I envied others but in a good way. Few of the people in my life had already achieved their dreams. One of them was in the same tuition school as I was. He now studied medicine and will be a doctor soon. Another one is now a assistant director of a company and it hit me when we use to fool around when we were kids! My sister had already started degree and is in her second semester. Plus, she’ll be assisting her faculty club soon. Dunno what post will she get but that’s an achievement. Not many can get a post especially in faculty clubs let alone if you are a repeater.

Two weeks left before my class for this semester ends. Time files when you are having fun and being busy. It feels as if yesterday I came back again at campus. Within these two weeks, I am staying with my friend. They have been so friendly and I thank them all from the bottom of my heart. May all of us pass our examination this semester with flying colors.

Accounting class is not really boring. It just needed a little bit of a twist. One time, I tried so hard to stay awake and try not to look bored. The lecturer stopped lecturing and asks the students…

“Okay, who’s feeling bored, raise up your hand.” He said. Everyone looked at one another.

I accidentally said …“What?” He turned to me.

“Are you bored?” He asked. I said nothing and pray that he did not notice that I was actually sleepy just now.

“You, stand up.” He said to me. I stood up and feeling rather nervous. Shit! I’ve done it this time. of all days, why today?

“You go and run quickly to the canteen and buy me some refreshment.” He said. I stood there rather blankly. He said what now? I already notice that the students in my class were giggling in a low voice.

“What drink do you want me to buy sir?” I asked him.

“Iced Milo and make it quick.” And with that I ran to the canteen and bought him one. Luckily he was the one who gave the money if not, I had to pay. Speaking of payment, the drink cost RM1.40 but he only gave me RM1.00. I had to run back to the class and demand 40 cents or else it will be on my head. (Sigh). 

 

Ah well, another memory to add into my memory box.  From here onwards I promise myself that I will try to stay awake in class regardless of how boring the teaching may be. (-_-‘’). Economic class is going rather smooth but I must say that we apparently will not be having a new lecturer since the semester is coming to an end. YAY! Our old lecturer is still around and it is good news for me since I like the way she teaches. It makes me understand better about what I am learning. I'm so going to win this game!

Determine to win this battle!!! Gambatte!!!

Anyways, I may not be blogging and writing for a while since I want to focus more on my upcoming final exams. Insya’Allah, I will return after the examinations over. I I can nail this I can finally go for my practical training!! Speaking of practical training, I already submitted my resume to the previous organization where I once work (for about a week) but after that, I changed my mind and add another one just in case if the first one does not have any vacancy in their department. All in all, I pray that may everything goes well. I really2 want to end this and move on with my life…

Me in studying mode..eh? bukan online ke? ...:p...pfft..hehe....

Wish me luck and pray for me everyone (^_^)….

Till then dear readers!

Wasalamu’Alaikum….

咲くバラのつぼみ...

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good Day dear readers :)

Going back to campus after the holidays is not really my thing but guess what, we have at least four more weeks left before the big examination. (((O____O)))...Argh! so not to my liking...
 

\Anyways, the lecturers and students will be very busy within these few weeks since we all need to cover up all chapters before the final exam. Not to mention, i have to submit my resume. I can't believe it! four more weeks and two hurdles and i'll be free again. Well, um...not entirely...hehe. I still have one more semester to go and that is continuing my practical training.

There is a catch there though. Now, we've all have those days when we're stuck between two choices or more. Well, my choice is not like any average kind of choices. It's like choosing between a roasted chicken and a watermelon. The thing is, I do have the intentions to continue back my practical training at my previous company but going to another place seemed to be more interesting. Even if its just one week, i seemed to understand the concept of my previous company. Don't get me wrong, i love that place very much but...my heart seemed to tell me to move on. Besides, its no guarantee if they immediately picked you to work for them again anyway...I just send my resume...small chance of success...wallahualam....

To be on the safe side, i placed in another organization in which i want to undergo my practical training. Although the place does sound a little oblivious to me but having five years of experience of what i encounter and learn in campus, I'll think I'll be just fine. I like learning and experiencing new things. I longed for an adventure and i know that the working world is not like what it seems. I entrust everything to Allah Taa'la for he holds the best provisions for us. Bertawakal dalam hati....


Anyways, this is all that i can write so far. I may go on a hiatus for a while because i want to focus on my upcoming final exam next month. Don't worry, i'll update again soon..:)

Till then dear readers!

Wasalamu'Alaikum...:D

 

Days with you.....

Assalamu'Alaikum & a very Good day every one....

Sorry for not updating for a while. First of all, I would like to wish Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir & Batin to all muslims who is celebrating Hari Raya..(-.-,) May Allah Taa'la bless us during this month of Syawal & may this month brings many good tidings to all....

Many things have happen during the Ramadhan month and it prologue until now. I had to go on a hiatus for a quite a while due to many reasons. Few of them was because my grandmother's health was deteriorating...It's a bit sad actually because she passed away last moth.....

My life has never been colorless until she passed away.... Being the last person to nurse her and to feed her, i left a mark in my broken heart. I always take turns with my family to nurse her. Forgive me if i'm wrong but teenagers or young adults these days probably think that taking care or nurse the elderly is a burden. Its not. Never!. I enjoy taking care of my late grandmother the most....

I miss her, i really really miss her. During weekends, my family would always visited her. I usually can't because always stuck with campus activities. Everytime when she is admitted to the hospital, i always volunteer to take care of her. Because i am always in campus and my class schedule is pretty tight, that's why i always take this opportunity to be with her. The day before she died, i was reluctant to go to class. The class was quite important because its one of the final subject before i can graduate. The topics covered that day was really important. That morning, i bought her some porridge that i bought from the shop inside the hospital. Didn't think that was actually her last meal... She enjoyed it..

I told her that i don't want to go but she said that i must go. Her love for knowledge is endless and that is one of the very few things she reminded to us before she died. She told me to study and go to class. As i waited for my mother to arrive and pick me up, the doctors and nurses arrive to check up on her. Its not that i hate them but the way they place the branula here and there trying to search for blood flow really made my heart fall into pieces. Hey! THAT'S MY GRANDMA YOU PLACE THE BRANULA AT!!. How can i not be sad. I was silently crying from afar as i watch them do their work. I cannot take it anymore. I wanted to stop them very much but if not, who knows what can happen. My late grandmother's hand were swelling at that time. they had to change it but they could not find any blood flow.

My mother came after that. I went to class with a heavy heart. I took a peek at her from the outside to make sure that she's well asleep. That was the last time i saw her in that state before she was transferred near the front desk. The sound of laughter and happiness in class made my heart even more tense as i cannot focus as my thoughts were only toward her. Is she doing well? is she sleeping? are the doctors putting inserting the needles and other medicine to her? what if they did it wrongly? ARGHHHHH! somebody hit me please!!!!!

My class finishes at four but my mother finishes her work at six. So, we headed down to the spring to break our fast. I was in the middle of eating my food when i receive a phone call from my cousin that my grandmother was gravely ill. We quickly rushed to the hospital as soon as possible. I did not care about my food anymore. My grandmother was my top priority. As i arrived at the hospital the guards held me off as visiting time is over. I accidentally blasted my anger to them and said, "Excuse me! but my grandmother is dying up there!!! Let me through!!!".

My family and relatives stayed at the hospital that night. We take turns as we go along. I did not stop reciting Surah Yassin to her. We whispered the kalimah shahadah. One thing though came across my mind, it was last ten days of Ramadhan. All that i can say is, her death was a blessed one from Allah Taa'la. She died during the month of Ramadhan,  exactly within the last ten nights of Ramadhan month. I went back home at nearly three fifteen. My uncle stayed at the hospital to look after her.

I was so tired and my body was aching. I did not want to go to sleep but my eyes were already giving hints and warnings. That morning, only me and my mother went to the hospital as it was our shift. Many relatives came, including my sister's roommate's father. ( We actually know that she was related to us last semester! How could we not know?) My sister's roommate's grandmother is my late grandmother's elder sister. Talk about family tree. I've known her for three years and only now i know her as my second cousin.(((O_O)))...
 At 11:00 her heart beat began to go below 30. I dread that the most. It was getting lower and lower by the hour. We never stopped reciting and whisper the Kalimah Syahadah to her.

What happened is the will of Allah and to him we will return....

At 12:30 p.m. 11th of August 2012, my beloved grandmother passed away. It was sad to let her go. Even today, I can still feel her around me. The colors around me started to fade. She was my world and a wonderful companion. I love her with all my heart. One thing that I'm glad about is she died in a very peaceful way. Her face was calm..very calm and it looked like she was smiling down upon us. She was buried after the asar prayers. Luckily, the funeral finished early because it started to rain.

All that has happened was quite a bang for me. The day after my grandmother died, my grandparents from my father's side will be going to perform their umrah and will be back after raya. Such a lonely raya this year is....

On the first day of Hari Raya, My family went to visit the grave of my families that have gone before us. Something odd but rather happy actually.... After my cousin visited my grandmother's grave along the way before she went to her parents grave, she saw a small yellow butterfly. What amazed us is that small butterfly appeared inside my late grandmother's bedroom on her bed. We guessed that it must've followed us along the way. My cousin said that when a small butterfly came inside your house it means that a loved one is coming. Wallahualam....My aunt says that my grandmother wanted so much to celebrate Hari Raya with all of us and i think she did. The butterfly flew all around the room and then landed on my mother's shoulder. after that it landed on my aunt and then flew all around my sister's head. Hehe..she's happy....:')

Being the last person to take care of her was a memory that i will carry with me till the end. My late grandmother was a wonderful woman and no one can replace her. My days with her is one of the memories i will keep with me in my heart. Her last wish for me is to be a better person. Do not be unjust and never do evil things. Always be humble and care for others. Besides that, she wants us to be proactive and fast and do not be cheated by time... She's always cared for others and is a great motivator. I pray that may Allah Taa'la bless her soul and may Allah Taa'la place her among the pious people...Goodbye grandma

Al-Fatihah.... 

My grandmother in her late teens. The picture is courtesy of my cousin.

The Queen of our hearts =D... She is of Melanau descendants

The last picture of her i took on the day before she died...

Till then dear readers....

Wasalamualaikum....

Mumble this..mumble that....

Assalamu'Alaikum & good day dear readers(-.-,)...

First of all, I apologize for not updating. Its been a while and my time to be busy has just begun. Assignments have already flooded me and its not an easy one to finish. Especially if it concerns calculations. Yep, I admit that i'm a little poor on that side but nonetheless, i love the subject. =) Its fun!.

Last week and this week i receive news from my ECO120 lecturer that she will be leaving soon. I had so much fun learning from her and it pains me to see her leave. This our class also receive news from my ACC100 lecturer that he'll be leaving as well. I also had fun learning with him. The way both lecturers teach is one thing. My concern is how will our class adapt to the new lecturers. I thank Allah Taa'la very much for all the blessings of knowledge that he gave to me. Alhamdulillah, learning accounting and economics have been smooth lately. I use to hate the subject and now, with the help of my current lecturer, things are better.

Learning has become a little uncomfortable these days. Not because of the subject but the new lecturer...well, the way he speaks makes me yawn...seriously. Most of us in class tried to stay awake in his presence but ended up with our eyes half closed. I respect him very much but come on, please make learning more interesting. Sometimes, failure is not only occurs because of not paying attention in class but how the person teaches also affects the marks.

If things keep up like this at this rate, I'll be seeing ACC100 again next semester. NNNNNOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (NOT GOING TO HAPPEN)

Well, that's all the ramblings that i can jot down for this post....

Wasalam....

Salam Ramadhan...

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good Day dear readers(^_^)...

For starters, please forgive me for not updating for so long. I've been busy lately due to studying. Even though its only two subject, the learning itself is hard and intense. I do not want to repeat anymore and that is why i have to struggle to complete it all. Alhamdulillah, the learning in class is more steady. I dare not to say it too much or else. I'm thankful for Allah S.W.T for everything. Most of my revisions and studying becomes a bit lighter compare to last semester. My lecturer is a strict one. I like that. It gives a person to be more discipline and more importantly, self-control.

I have one sad news as well. My friend's father had passed away this week. I pray to Allah that may He blessed my friend's father's soul. May he be among the pious people. Al-Fatihah....

There is not much things to say. My view here in campus is still the same as usual but rather quiet. My sister and cousin, had just finished their semester and is currently enjoying their holiday. I on the other hand experience the opposite. No matter, I'll finish my semester soon too anyways, Insya'Allah. Usually I'll be in my sister's room right now but because i have no hostel room i am forced to spend my time around and around the campus. I don't mind really but what i do mind is why on earth the university enrolled so many students. Its not that i am against it but please, pity those who came from other countries and cannot get a room at the hostel. I feel like i want to build a tent in the middle of the football field right this instant. (T_T)...

I want to rent a room outside of campus but the fee is just too much. Plus, i have enough financial problems to deal with. All i can do is be patience. Moreover, the month of Ramadhan will come in three days time now. I am so looking forward to it (O.O,). Speaking of Ramadhan, i missed my friends whom i use to have my iftar with. Those were the wonderful days. Now, it seems my Ramadhan gotten a little somber. My grandparents along with my aunt and her family will be going to perform their Umrah soon and they will not be back until the end of Hari Raya Aidil Fitri....


Looks like it will only be me and my family then. Its so quiet....This may be my first Ramadhan and Hari Raya without my grandparents with me. Usually, during the festive holidays, on the first day or Raya, our family would gather at the main house. The elders and grown ups would gather at the living room and all the grandchildren would seek forgiveness from each other. The small kids get a green packet which has money in them. I am no exception..hehe. After than we will gather for a family photo.... To think that we'll be missing those traditions....but i believe Allah has more plans for all of us more than we have plans for ourselves. I wish my grandparents, my aunt and her family a safe journey. 


I finished a drawing that my supervisor back at the department where i had my practical. I'll be colouring them soon and will email it to her before the first day of Ramadhan. I missed them all. I missed my station, the pantry where i use to have tea, I missed the view photostat machine(erk? hehe...) No worries, Insya'Allah, if Allah S.W.T wills it, I'll be back again. I so want to finish everything. No rush dear one...no rush. Just let everything go with the flow....


I'm rather surprised plus curious that our lecturer did not call us like last year when we were asked to make our resume as they will post them to the selected organization like usual. Perhaps later...maybe. I try not to worry too much about things. I'm going to focus more on my studies from now. Its a long road ahead. I'm no longer afraid of things. In Allah Taa'la i trust and only to Him i place my faith into...May the journey ahead brings more of His blessings to all of us.

Lastly, i want to wish all my dear muslim brothers and sisters of whom i love because of Allah S.W.T, Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan !(^_^) May Allah Taa'la bless us all during this month. There are a lot of good things and try to gain as much deeds and knowledge as we can during this month. Perbanyakan doa dan muhasabah diri jugak ye...


Here is a few warm ups that you can do before and during Ramadhan month:

This is not only useful for Ramadhan month only but you can apply it in your daily life as well. X kan nak jadi muslim yang alang-alang kan?..:)
 
Till then dear readers....

Wasalamu'Alaikum...