Assalamualaikum and Good day everyone(-.-,)
Sorry for not updating...huhu..buzy sangat semenjak kebelakangan nih. Anyways, things haven't been really nice lately. Apa2 pon ana tetap bersabar dengan semuanya bab Allah Maha mengetahui apa yg dilalui ana nih bukannya senang. X pe, yang penting sekarang nih ana x alih dari fokus utama ana.
LIFE IN CAMPUS & AT HOME...
Things have not gone through what i imagine but then again there are ups and downs. The course registration is already closed and time to validate it. I cannot validate my course registration due to financial problems. Me and my mother did went to KWSP the other day to settle my university fee payment but inside the validation portal it stated that i haven't paid yet. This really got me sighed all the way to class. I cannot help but turn my smile upside down. believe me, its not the first time those workers from the department did this. I just don't understand how they work. I was planning to go to the financial department again today but i'm still at home. Insha'Allah, i hope o can make it there today. The validation course will end on the fourth of July and i have to validate it before this date.
Books, I love them but then again I own no money to buy them. I'm not the kind of person to mind these things but when the lecturer announced that we're going to use new books it got me sighed as i look at my empty little purse. I don't take scholarships because i know its hard to get one and my father does not want me to take up PTPTN either. I was the only one in class that does not have the text book yet. My lecturer told me to quickly get one but the textbooks cost more than i can afford. (-_-)...Plus the quizzes and test is getting near and i still have no book to revise. its not that i don't want to photostat it from my classmates but alas, financial problems got the best of me who want to study and i'm also concern toward my classmates that wanted to study as well. It's a never mind, i'm sure in time i can manage to get one on time. Seeing my parents went up and down to search for money to pay for my expenses has already made me feel so stress. I really appreciate their help but i cannot bear to see them like this. I was though, even to think of giving up the public speaking & OB textbook and give it back to my lecturer. if i can't pay for it mind as well just give it back. My hear sank as i thought of this...as much as i love to have it, i can't possibly pay for it. when my sister lend me her money for me to buy some food i can't help but to think to use it to pay half first of the textbooks but then again i wouldn't have anything to eat for the whole week then. Even my family is having troubles to get something to eat too..i feel like i'm a burden to them..Just thinking about them when i look at the food that i bought made me feel too guilty. have they eaten? is my mother eating well? does my little brother bring his bottle of water with him to school today? AAARRRGGHHH!!! Someone please slap me!!! Focus dear one! focus!...(-___-).. Financial problems have always been my biggest worries since i was a freshman.
For what its worth, I'm thankful that i still got a place to keep a roof over my head. I thank my friends from the bottom of my heart. I still don't have a place to stay yet here in UiTM and i did send a letter along with an attachment behind it. So far, there has been no word. I don't want to be a burden to both of my friends who let me share the dorm with them. It made me feel so blessed but again, worries got inside my brain again. I don't want them to be in trouble for keeping an illegal student in the hostel. That i dread the most. there is just too much intake this year but so little place to stay. Most of the students regardless if they are junior or senior had to stay outside. Some even have to share a room with their friends. At first i really do not agree to stay with my friends because i don't want them to get into trouble but i pity my mother. She has problems regarding with her health and i don't want her to be more sick. Needless to say, i think i got the hang of it, living with other people besides my sister. I get to see the beautiful side of things and make new acquaintance. They are such wonderful people. Long ago, its hard for me to smile as the things around me is sometimes cruel. It still haunts my vision now and then but i wont make that as a barrier for me and the people around me. Syukur Alhamdulillah...
Patience is a virtue. Patience is also one of the things that sharpen up one's character. Being patience is never an easy task but it always helps to prevent bad things from happening even worse. A wise person is a person that can take control of his anger and use its patience to overcome it, if you get my meaning. People always say that life can sometimes be so cruel...I never really try to think of it that way...In fact, the cruelty of life is something that can be made as a lesson to learn. I've learned my mistakes and wished for not to go through it again...For what its worth, I'm still glad that i'm able to walk on Allah's earth. Deep inside, I knew he wants me to be happy and content, yup that's the right word. I pray that may the patience in me help me to get through all this because i know that inspite of everything, things will work out in the end..Insya'Allah.
INSYA'ALLAH...
I want to help my family...I can't think of anything else besides that. its hard for me to focus in my studies without family problems surrounding my thoughts. My mother says that if i want to help her than don't quit my studies. My sister will be graduating soon and i'm so glad that she made it through. I'm still stuck at the near end of the dark tunnel. I did though, thought about writing children's book but i don't know where to start. My novel is still ongoing but i cannot finish it because i need to focus on my studies. Insya'Allah, If Allah wills it i can finish it...the few things that i like about the things and experience around me is there's always something to write about..hehehee, with the experience and stories, i hope i whip up something that is good to read and tell...like this one, i lost track of where i misplaced my phone. As i retrace back my steps..a few minutes later i found it! the good thing was its still works fine (Now its totally damage). but the weird thing was, i found it inside the refrigerator...hahahahaa, goodness, a friend of mine says that and with that kind of thing happen i hope all the bacteria is gone...hehe..
Well, that's it for now, i have to get ready to go back to campus. My mother will probably not be the one sending me there today as she got help from my cousin to send her to work due to no fuel for her car. I guess my situation would probably be the same. Well, time to get cooking...i have to cook lunch before my mother arrives this afternoon. then we can all have lunch together(^^,)V...
I'll update soon, Insya'Allah..wslm...
Sunday, June 26, 2011
Saturday, June 11, 2011
Hospital hospitality....
Asslamualaikum & a very good day 2 all(^^,)...
Last few days were okay. My schedule is disturbed again and i have in sense of no idea of what so ever how the class schedule turned out. Thank goodness i messaged one of my classmates and she told me about the news. Looks like i have to find a way to settle this problem. I've already text a message to my lecturer and insya'Allah i'll be seeing her this Monday. Besides that, another problem occur....
Last week's Friday, after Maghrib prayers my mother received a call from my aunt that my grandmother was admitted into the hospital. My siblings stayed at home while me and my mother rushed to the hospital. by the time we got there she was already at the emergency ward. The hospital...well, its not that i dislike them but yeah, it can be a scary experience. But that totally changed my views and expectations....(Let me just write it in a short story form)...
As we went inside the emergency ward, i say my grandmother lying on the hospital bed. She was glad to see us and so did our aunt (Which, had been trying to contact my mother for the past twenty minutes) my mom's phone was left at home due to a flat battery. My grandmother had experienced chest pain and she hardly could breath well. I was worried that she might have heart problems ( Syukur, that was not the case...yet).
The smell of medicine in the hospital and the people bustling in and out of the ward really interests me. I'm beginning to see a different side of things. i think being in the hospital is a good exposure and good opportunity to see the side of life. Of course, there are a few patients that is totally out of the ordinary. (I was afraid that they might break loose!!) There was one though, really got me glued to where i'm standing. There was this middle aged man who fainted. His son and wife were there with him. it was about fifteen minutes later when the commotion starts. He started to open his eyes and saw the Indian doctor in front of him. his eyes widen and he started to go mad. Then four more doctors along with three paramedics and two securities rushed over to them. He wanted to break loose and he started cursing as well as saying nonsensical things. All eyes were on all of them. My guess his brain still cannot detect that he was inside the hospital. I guessed it must be the effects from it) It takes about more than half of the doctors there to calm him down. the doctors fused the medicine inside of him. I told his wife to recite Bismillah for 21 times in his ear. after a few seconds, the doctors managed to calm him down. A doctor's life is fill with patience and moreover diligence. I respect them very much and i thank them from the bottom of my heart for taking good care of my granny as well.after that the last few hours i was beginning to feel sleepy.
Grandma sleeping after the doctors did a few check ups on her
The doctor then told us that she had to stay in the hospital for a few days. they also suspect heart problems and skin disease. We all took turns to take care of her. on the third day, me and my mother were at the hospital. I was beginning to feel bored plus i dreaded that my MP3 broke a few months ago. How i wish that it can still function right now because the hospital is soooo quiet!...Then i started to wonder around. My curiosity got the best of me this time. but before that incident happen, i wander around the other wards on the ninth floor. After that i wander near the exit stairs. it had a marvelous view of the city but due to the dull atmosphere i started to play some music from my phone. I did though heard a clicking sound but i ignored it. then just as i turned the door knob, i t was locked! I trembled and panicked for a while....okay, how am i going to get out of here. i tried knocking a few times but no one heard me. I don't want to spend the rest of the night here!!! nooooo....then i decided to take the stairs(Actually the path that i went down was only for staffs...that got me nervous) I went all the way down to the ninth floor to the seventh floor, retrace my steps and head back toward my granmother's ward. I sat there and did not say anything due to the shock...hahahahaha...adventure can be deadly at times...butthen again ti was a fun experience. On monday, my grandmother is then discharged and can go back home safe and sound. I pray for my dear grandmother to be alright and well. May Allah bless her and love you grandma(^^)....
well that's a few that i can share with you guys about what happened. by the way, i advice, do not wander around by yourself. Always have a companion with you and go to place where there are many people and less danger. I of course learned my lesson from that events. (got scolded for it as well)....what if the door was purposely locked? Syukur Alhamdulillah, Allah protects me...
till then dear readers...=) wslm..
Here are some of the pictures that i took when i'm bored...
Last few days were okay. My schedule is disturbed again and i have in sense of no idea of what so ever how the class schedule turned out. Thank goodness i messaged one of my classmates and she told me about the news. Looks like i have to find a way to settle this problem. I've already text a message to my lecturer and insya'Allah i'll be seeing her this Monday. Besides that, another problem occur....
Last week's Friday, after Maghrib prayers my mother received a call from my aunt that my grandmother was admitted into the hospital. My siblings stayed at home while me and my mother rushed to the hospital. by the time we got there she was already at the emergency ward. The hospital...well, its not that i dislike them but yeah, it can be a scary experience. But that totally changed my views and expectations....(Let me just write it in a short story form)...
As we went inside the emergency ward, i say my grandmother lying on the hospital bed. She was glad to see us and so did our aunt (Which, had been trying to contact my mother for the past twenty minutes) my mom's phone was left at home due to a flat battery. My grandmother had experienced chest pain and she hardly could breath well. I was worried that she might have heart problems ( Syukur, that was not the case...yet).
The smell of medicine in the hospital and the people bustling in and out of the ward really interests me. I'm beginning to see a different side of things. i think being in the hospital is a good exposure and good opportunity to see the side of life. Of course, there are a few patients that is totally out of the ordinary. (I was afraid that they might break loose!!) There was one though, really got me glued to where i'm standing. There was this middle aged man who fainted. His son and wife were there with him. it was about fifteen minutes later when the commotion starts. He started to open his eyes and saw the Indian doctor in front of him. his eyes widen and he started to go mad. Then four more doctors along with three paramedics and two securities rushed over to them. He wanted to break loose and he started cursing as well as saying nonsensical things. All eyes were on all of them. My guess his brain still cannot detect that he was inside the hospital. I guessed it must be the effects from it) It takes about more than half of the doctors there to calm him down. the doctors fused the medicine inside of him. I told his wife to recite Bismillah for 21 times in his ear. after a few seconds, the doctors managed to calm him down. A doctor's life is fill with patience and moreover diligence. I respect them very much and i thank them from the bottom of my heart for taking good care of my granny as well.after that the last few hours i was beginning to feel sleepy.
Grandma sleeping after the doctors did a few check ups on her
The doctor then told us that she had to stay in the hospital for a few days. they also suspect heart problems and skin disease. We all took turns to take care of her. on the third day, me and my mother were at the hospital. I was beginning to feel bored plus i dreaded that my MP3 broke a few months ago. How i wish that it can still function right now because the hospital is soooo quiet!...Then i started to wonder around. My curiosity got the best of me this time. but before that incident happen, i wander around the other wards on the ninth floor. After that i wander near the exit stairs. it had a marvelous view of the city but due to the dull atmosphere i started to play some music from my phone. I did though heard a clicking sound but i ignored it. then just as i turned the door knob, i t was locked! I trembled and panicked for a while....okay, how am i going to get out of here. i tried knocking a few times but no one heard me. I don't want to spend the rest of the night here!!! nooooo....then i decided to take the stairs(Actually the path that i went down was only for staffs...that got me nervous) I went all the way down to the ninth floor to the seventh floor, retrace my steps and head back toward my granmother's ward. I sat there and did not say anything due to the shock...hahahahaha...adventure can be deadly at times...butthen again ti was a fun experience. On monday, my grandmother is then discharged and can go back home safe and sound. I pray for my dear grandmother to be alright and well. May Allah bless her and love you grandma(^^)....
well that's a few that i can share with you guys about what happened. by the way, i advice, do not wander around by yourself. Always have a companion with you and go to place where there are many people and less danger. I of course learned my lesson from that events. (got scolded for it as well)....what if the door was purposely locked? Syukur Alhamdulillah, Allah protects me...
till then dear readers...=) wslm..
Here are some of the pictures that i took when i'm bored...
Tuesday, June 7, 2011
Something to write about....
Assalamualaikum & good day 2 everyone(^^,)
Fuuuuhhh~~~ lega ana kelas dah abis tp masalah belum berakhir begitu saje. Ana ader subjek yg bertindih dgn subjek yang lain. Ape2 pon ana harap yg semuanya akan berakhir dengan secepat yang mungkin.
Seperti biasa OM akan menghadapi cuti buat beberapa hari..tapi kelas luar dari fakulti akan berjalan spt biasa. Lecturer yang der kat UiTM kali nie is Mdm Emilia yang telah mengambil cuti bersalin 3 bulan. Let us pray for her safe labour later. Mana2 lecturer yang lain yang mengajar bebudak Degree students cuti jugak. So yang tinggal sekarang nih is lecturer2 yang ajar diploma. I just receive news as well from my lecturer yang OM bakal ader lecturer baru. three if im not mistaken...two women and one man. First time OM bakal dapat lecturer lelaki. x kesah pon bab dier cuti kawen..hahahahaa..(^o^) sorry ladies, he's taken ya. Pasal course registration ana baru je tukar group. Hopefully after this jadual ana x der clashes.
Kelas hari nie boleh tahan gak. Its been a year since i drop BEL 313 course. Sekarang nih ana dapat ambik subjek tu so gears up! Ana will try to do my best in it in anyway i can possibly can. Bel is a very interesitng subject if one can understand. I love Bel soooo much but at times there can be a lot of headaches upon learning it but once the progress starts in the end the results will be worth the effort....
Dah hilang idea dah....hehe...no worries. I'll update soon about everything that needs to be updated. till then..=)
wasalam...
Fuuuuhhh~~~ lega ana kelas dah abis tp masalah belum berakhir begitu saje. Ana ader subjek yg bertindih dgn subjek yang lain. Ape2 pon ana harap yg semuanya akan berakhir dengan secepat yang mungkin.
Seperti biasa OM akan menghadapi cuti buat beberapa hari..tapi kelas luar dari fakulti akan berjalan spt biasa. Lecturer yang der kat UiTM kali nie is Mdm Emilia yang telah mengambil cuti bersalin 3 bulan. Let us pray for her safe labour later. Mana2 lecturer yang lain yang mengajar bebudak Degree students cuti jugak. So yang tinggal sekarang nih is lecturer2 yang ajar diploma. I just receive news as well from my lecturer yang OM bakal ader lecturer baru. three if im not mistaken...two women and one man. First time OM bakal dapat lecturer lelaki. x kesah pon bab dier cuti kawen..hahahahaa..(^o^) sorry ladies, he's taken ya. Pasal course registration ana baru je tukar group. Hopefully after this jadual ana x der clashes.
Kelas hari nie boleh tahan gak. Its been a year since i drop BEL 313 course. Sekarang nih ana dapat ambik subjek tu so gears up! Ana will try to do my best in it in anyway i can possibly can. Bel is a very interesitng subject if one can understand. I love Bel soooo much but at times there can be a lot of headaches upon learning it but once the progress starts in the end the results will be worth the effort....
Dah hilang idea dah....hehe...no worries. I'll update soon about everything that needs to be updated. till then..=)
wasalam...
Monday, June 6, 2011
Confessions of a student....
Assalamualaikum & Good day everyone...
Ana baru je sampai di bumi UiTM kali nie...Len mcm je suasana sekarang. al maklumlah pelajar Diploma & Degree dipisahkan so less people in campus but i doubt that because dengan kadar pelajar baru and 2nd intake nanti x le suny sgt. what i mean by empty is there is so many unfamiliar faces now walking about the pavements and corridors...Rindu gak ana dengan teman2 campus ana...
Life comes and goes....same gak mcm high school. we came, we learn, we leave. Ana admit that this semester the atmosphere is pretty empty and lonely. Ana bersabar dengan ujian yg Allah bg buat ana because ana tau yg Allah sygkan ana(^^,)...Allah Maha mengetahui. Maybe its not the right time yet to wear the square hat. Masih bnyk lagi ilmu yang ana perlu belajar & perbaiki. Dunia luar tidak seindah or seburuk yang disangka. baru je mlm tadi ana ader baca satu buku nih yg bertajuk Menjadi Muslim Terbaik.
Nobody is perfect but with the stuff you learn & the knowledge you acquire you can do great things...depends on how you view things...I may not be a bright person nor have i got a high IQ but with the knowledge given to me i will put it to full use. I may sometimes a little slow pick up but that's just one of the things that make me appreciate details. (Slow and steady...Fast but no rush)...insya'Allah...with Allah's guidance the world will follow you instead of you following the world...=)
I believe i can, though this time i may be fighthing alone but hey, that makes things a little less hectic but more on the progress. Forgive me if i'm wrong but i just say things that came shooting across my little mind...
Tu je yang ana dapat coret buat masa nih. Ana nak pi kelas dulu...till then dear readers..=)
wasalam...
Ana baru je sampai di bumi UiTM kali nie...Len mcm je suasana sekarang. al maklumlah pelajar Diploma & Degree dipisahkan so less people in campus but i doubt that because dengan kadar pelajar baru and 2nd intake nanti x le suny sgt. what i mean by empty is there is so many unfamiliar faces now walking about the pavements and corridors...Rindu gak ana dengan teman2 campus ana...
Life comes and goes....same gak mcm high school. we came, we learn, we leave. Ana admit that this semester the atmosphere is pretty empty and lonely. Ana bersabar dengan ujian yg Allah bg buat ana because ana tau yg Allah sygkan ana(^^,)...Allah Maha mengetahui. Maybe its not the right time yet to wear the square hat. Masih bnyk lagi ilmu yang ana perlu belajar & perbaiki. Dunia luar tidak seindah or seburuk yang disangka. baru je mlm tadi ana ader baca satu buku nih yg bertajuk Menjadi Muslim Terbaik.
Nobody is perfect but with the stuff you learn & the knowledge you acquire you can do great things...depends on how you view things...I may not be a bright person nor have i got a high IQ but with the knowledge given to me i will put it to full use. I may sometimes a little slow pick up but that's just one of the things that make me appreciate details. (Slow and steady...Fast but no rush)...insya'Allah...with Allah's guidance the world will follow you instead of you following the world...=)
I believe i can, though this time i may be fighthing alone but hey, that makes things a little less hectic but more on the progress. Forgive me if i'm wrong but i just say things that came shooting across my little mind...
Tu je yang ana dapat coret buat masa nih. Ana nak pi kelas dulu...till then dear readers..=)
wasalam...
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