Semester Holidays..

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good Day everyone (-.-,)...

Last week have been a busy one indeed its the 100th day since my late grandmother's death. My uncle from miri arrive a few days before and so everyone is busy with the work to prepare untuk makan 100 arwah....
My little sister said to me that she still cannot accept the fact that my late grandmother died. To her she was always a strong woman & always been there for us. I also cannot accept that fact but i tired my best to keep her memories alive. She was a wonderful person to all of us and will always remain in our hearts forever. Al-Fatihah...

Anyways, last week as well, i receive a phone call from my lecturer regarding my practical training. (Finally, after a long wait)... But i do not know whether to say if it is a good news or not. According to my lecturer, the place that i chose to undergo my practical training is already full but they have three more seats or as in empty fillings to fill. There were three students including me who chose that place to go for practical training. I was relieved but at the same time kind of sad. This is because two of the students chosen will be placed at the main headquarters while one will be placed at the customer service department at another headquarters which is situated in the city. (Sigh) I can see this one coming....since the person they chose... was me....(-_-)

I don't mind much but it would be nice to work at the main headquarters since its close to my home. When i receive that news, something in my heart felt strange. I do not know whether i should say that i felt rather cheated or being pitied. Oh well, All in all i just want to finish my diploma and move on with life. My mother on the other hand said to me that if the lecturer does not call me she will take the matters into her own hands. She wants me to work at her friends place. I was having second thoughts about it. My heart tells me no but my brain logically tells go for it since it was for the better. I cannot wait for anyone. Enough about that one, my sister then came barging in telling me i should go an accept the work at another company she chose. ARGGHHH!!!.. Please! (>.<) Both of you are making it hard for me to choose. Plus, it hurts my brain to think too much.

I keep praying to Allah SWT for help regarding this matter. I want to chose a place where my heart can be at ease and easily my Iman can adapt to. There were two places i wrote on my resume for my lecturer to send. Before I receive the phone call, I had a dream that me and two of my juniors that chose the same company that we will go for our practical training met inside a meeting room. After a brief talk from a man (I think his role is a manager) we separated and go to different departments. Strangely, the place i was at change into a hospital instead. I walked and walked but I saw nothing but patients, doctors and nurses all around me.

Eh? Isn't the place I'm working suppose to be dealing with office work and all? How come it turned into a hospital? beside, the smell of medicine still lingers around and around (...Guess my love for medic really still lives huh?...). The next day, i receive the phone call and after a while, it hit me! The other headquarters in the city is situated next to a Polyclinic! That's probably it! How Allah SWT works in many ways to give me hints and i am very grateful to Him for everything. I just hope that after this, all goes well...

My lecturer says that the company will give her the letters of acceptance within this week and she would call me to collect all of it later. So far, i do not receive any phone calls yet and it's killing me in the inside. If the company is full just chose the second one then. It'll be fine anyways. I want to move on and i want to finish my diploma just like everyone else....Moga Allah SWT permudahkan segala perjalanan selepas ini....(-.-)

Well, that's all from me. The rest of the days have been pretty boring actually. I haven't gone out of the house much. In fact, come to think of it, i never go out at all! (sigh)...i think i do need to get my driver's license. at least, i can go to the library. I do not want my mother to send me because it will be troublesome for her to go out from work again and again. Till then dear readers...

Wasalamualaikum...

Salam Maal Hijrah 1434...

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good Day everyone..(-.-,)

Terlebih dahulu ana nak ucapkan Selamat Menyambut Maal Hijrah bagi seluruh Muslimin & Muslimah sedunia. Moga dengan datangnya tahun baru ini kita dapat manfaatkan dengan sebaik-baiknya. Moga Allah SWT mengampunkan segala-segala perbuatan kita pada tahun lepas yang boleh mendatangkan murkanya & Moga Allah SWT perkenankan segala amal kebaikann yang kita lakukan. Amin.

Maal Hijrah bukanlah sekadar menyambut kedatangan tahun baru dalam Islam akan tetapi ia lebih dari itu. Ia juga umpama sebuah perjalanan mencari redha Illahi. Sesungguhnya ayat Al-Quran itu adalah kata-kata Allah dan tiadalah benar melainkan benar sahaja. 

 "Orang-orang yang beriman dan berhijrah serta berjihad dengan harta benda dan diri, mereka adalah lebih tinggi darjatnya pada sisi Allah (SWT). Mereka itulah orang-orang yang mendapat kemenangan. Tuhan mengembirakan mereka dengan rahmat daripada-Nya keredhaan dan syurga. Di dalamnya mereka memperoleh kesenangan yang abadi. Mereka kekal di dalamnya selama-lamanya. Sesungguhnya disisi Allah itu pahala yang sangat besar." 

(Surah At-Taubah, Ayat 20)

Sini ada satu puisi yg ana nak share. Sama2lah kita ambil iktibar & pengajaran daripadanya. Selain itu, marilah kita sama2 mohon doa kepada Allah SWT agar penghijrahan diri selepas ini menjadi penuh berkah, penuh dengan kasih sayang & RahmatNya. Amin... Janganlah kita ulangi kesilapan masa lalu & sebaiknya kita lakukanlah yang terbaik dalam hidup tidak lain & tidak bukan akan tetapi hanyalah bagi menharapkan keredhaan & ketaqwaan  pada Allah SWT. Moga segala amalan kita juga akan diterimaNya..Amin...

Muhasabah Maal Hijrah

Di awal tahun baru hijrah,
Ku sujud menghambakan diri pada-Mu,
Hati terus merintih mengenangkan dosa lalu,
Kotornya diri dengan maksiat dan noda,

Lemahnya jiwa berdepan dengan dunia,
Lalainya diri dari mengingati-Nya,
Astaghfirullahal 'adzim....
Banyaknya kekurangan diri,
Ampuni hamba-Mu ini Ya Allah.

Aku sedar,
Jiwa yang tandus taqwa,
Terdorong lakukan apa sahaja,
Sanggup menentang arus kehendak Ilahi,
Yang difikir hanyalah untuk kepuasan diri,
Maka, pabila dosa telah larut,
Gelaplah hati, kotorlah jiwa, murunglah diri,
Itulah fitrah sang pendosa,
Yang leka dari pencipta-Nya.

Namun, bila iman hadir di jiwa,
Mata hati mula bekerja,
Baru kusedar, betapa diri jauh dari-Mu Tuhan,
Asyik sibuk untuk dunia,
Hinggakan solat sering kutunda,
Al-Quran pun malas dibaca,
Lidahku kotor dengan kata-kata dusta,
Mata ini tak kujaga dari perkara dosa,
Telinga ini mendengar apa yang tak sepatutnya,
Kaki ini sering melangkah ke tempat lagha.

Ya Allah,
Jauh sekali diriku dengan peribadi kekasih-Mu,
Kau teladan terbaik bagi seluruh umat,
Ingin sekali aku mencontohi peribadimu, Rasulullah
Meskipun dirimu suci tanpa dosa,
Solat malam tidak pernah kau lupa,
Munajatmu di tengah malam jadi rutin harian,
Pengharapanmu pada Tuhan terlalu tinggi,
Sedang aku???
Seorang hamba yang penuh dosa....
Solat fardhu pun kurang dijaga,
Apatah lagi solat malam sepertimu, Ya Nabiyullah.

Sungguh,

Aku ingin berubah,
Menjadi seorang hamba-Mu yang taat,
Aku takut akan azab kubur,
Aku gerun dengan dahsyatnya neraka-Mu,
Dan kurindukan nikmat syurga.

Jadi,
Kupohon padaMu wahai Tuhan,
Campakkan ke dalam hati ini niat yang tulus,
Ingin sekali aku berdiri di hadapan-Mu dengan jiwa yang tunduk,
Ingin sekali aku rukuk pada-Mu dengan hati yang pasrah,
Dan ingin sekali ku sujud ke hadhrat-Mu dengan punuh kehambaan,

Ya Rahim,
Sucikan hatiku dari sifat munafik,
Sucikan amalku daripada riyak,
Sucikan lidahku daripada dusta dan mataku dari khianat,
Jadikanlah diriku seorang anak yang solehah,
Yang bisa mendamaikan hati Ummi dan Abiku,
Jadikanlah diriku seorang mukminat solehah,
Kerna mukminat solehah itu lebih cantik dari bidadari syurga.

Dan...
Kurniakan aku kesabaran untuk menunaikan ketaatan pada-Mu,
Anugerahkan aku kesabaran dalam meninggalkan maksiat pada-Mu,
Jadikanlah hati ini hati yang sentiasa mengingati-Mu,
Agar dapat ku miliki sekeping hati yang tenang,
Jauh dari hasad dengki dan kepalsuan dunia,
Hadirkanlah cintaku kepada-Mu mengatasi segalanya,
Agar Kau temukan hati yang terbaik buat diriku.

Moga dapat kukecapi, kebahagiaan yang hakiki,
Suatu hari nanti...
Amin....

Sumber Puisi : http://www.iluvislam.com/tazkirah/nasihat/3962-muhasabah-maal-hijrah.html

  

Marilah kita sama-sama membaca Doa Akhir Tahun & Awal Tahun ..(-.-,)

Well, that's all from me.Apa yang baik itu semuanya datang daripada Allah SWT & segala keburukan itu datang hanyalah daripada kesilapan diri sendiri. Till then dear readers...Wasalamu'Alaikum

Blessings from Allah S.W.T....

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good Day everyone (^.^,)...

Alhamdulillah...

Alhamdulillah...

Alhamdulillah....

Words cannot describe how deeply truly content I am today. For the first time in my life i felt relief and I can move on with my life at ease without having to worry too much. The examination results for this semester was release  yesterday and.......

I PASS THE EXAM!!!! \\(^.^,)// ....

Believe me, the day before the examination result come out, I was quite nervous. But, with prayers and blessings from Allah SWT all goes well in the end. I owe it all to Him. Without Allah none of this will happen. I believe in Him more than ever. Always Put Our Trust In Allah, Insya'Allah the rest will follow...:)

Ku panjat segala kesyukuran dan keredhaanku pada Allah S.W.T. Syukur Alhamdulillah dapat ku teruskan perjuangan ini.

Jazakallah Khayran Semua :) :D

Terima Kasih tak terhingga ku ucapkan terutamanya buat kedua ibubapa & adik beradik yg tersayang yg selalu menjadi nadi & tonggak kejayaanku selama. Mama, papa, dibah, sofia & uin :) than

ks for everything. I love you very much :)

Terma kasih juga buat femly2, cousin2 yg bnyk beri sokongan, pensyarah2 yg tidak pernah putus2 memberi ilmu kepadaku & juga kepada rakan akhawat2 & ikhwan2 seperjuangan yg banyak memberi tunjuk ajar. Tanpa mereka siapalah diri ini...

Nek chu...
kmk dah lulus...kmk dah dpt tunaikan janji kmk dgn ktk...wish i can say it to you personally...
terima kasih nek for always believing in me...:')

Setinggi2 kesyukuran ku panjatkan kepada Allah S.W.T keatas segala nikmat & kasih sayangNya & juga redhaNya...
Syukur Alhamdulillahx3..

The next hurdle is not going to get pretty...tapi berbekalkan kesabaran dan usaha akan ku tempuh dengan hati yang tenang & tabah. Sesungguhnya Allah S.W.T lah yg sebaik2 penentu segalanya. Moga semua urusan selepas ini dipermudahkanNya. amin...Mohon do'a nya teman2 .... :)

 

I can finally undergo my practical training and then finish my diploma. I already contact my academic adviser and she asked me to liaise with the lecturer incharge. They will inform me the news later. Somehow i hope there is good news.... Others also suggest a few places. Wargh! too many la for me to choose (>.<).... I only need one.

Thinking back on what my mother says during dinner regarding this.  It's all for the future later on....Still, it's quite a difficult decision for me to make...A little bit of pressure here... Choosing is one thing but deciding is another...

I need sometime to think things through.... and they give me at least four days to make up my mind.

I need a miracle(-_-;)... Any sign would do.... (sigh)

Manusia merancang tapi Allah SWT yg akan tentukan. Moga2 apa2 keputusan yg dipilih nanti tidak lain yg ku harapkan melainkan ia dapat memanfaatkan diriku untuk lebih dekat dengan Allah Yang Maha Esa.

Well that's all from me . I'll write again next time. Till then dear readers :)

Wasalamu'Alaikum....