Mahou No Kotoba...

Assalamualaikum & Good Day dear readers....

Time...It always gets me every single minute. Sometime I wish that it would go rather slowly but at times, I do wish for it to be fast.

Time is very limited compared to the things that you want to do and to the things that you have to do.

Since the start of practical training, I always wonder what can I gain from here. So far, I acquire many experiences but still… I still feel that there something missing. I think I know very much what that is but I cannot write it here because I’m afraid that the mentioned one might be amongst the readers.

The thing is, to me time is always so short. My late grandmother always says that do not be cheated by time. I always remember her words every time if there is responsibilities needed to be done.

It has been good here though there were some tear jerking moments. Not because of work load but a friend of mine finished undergo her training and is now back in her homeland. I really miss her very much. Our section is always noisy with her and another colleague of mine usually yick yacking in the wee hours of the morning.

Another news came up that another colleague of mine will be leaving soon to further his studies. Things seemed to get a little quiet in my practical life. But still, it’s life. The wheels of life is slowly turning and there are people that comes and goes in one’s life. The most important thing is we do not forget them. Once you met someone, you never really forget them. I wish them both all the best in the world and he hereafter. Amin…

I am left with only three more weeks before returning to campus for  the last phase of my practical training in which I will be giving a presentation to the evaluators that will evaluate me and my friends later. It’s scary and nerve wrecking but in the end it all will come to pass.

I can’t help to say that I do.. am going to miss diploma life. The memories that happen within these five long years is indeed a blessing from Allah SWT to me. The silly times, the good ones, the bitter ones and many more have taught me a lot. Heck, I gained a lot of experience too. But most of all, I’m glad that it’s finally over. My waiting will be over soon and I will be able to move with my life just like any human in this world. All I hope and pray that May Allah SWT bless with his kindness,  and have mercy upon me and my family and everyone during our lifetime this world and the hereafter.

To You….

Words cannot express on how much I am very contend to Allah SWT for having me to meet you once more after all my years of separation from you. Truly, I am grateful…

When I see you again it reminds me how the world is small and how powerful Allah SWT is in our life. When I see you again, it made me believe that miracles do happen. If it is the will of Allah SWT for us to meet then we will meet again but if so writes the will of Allah SWT that we do not meet anymore, I pray that may we be reunited in His Garden of Paradise. By that time, I wish to see you smile to me like you are now.

I apologize if during our meeting and the encounters we go through, I have hurt your feelings. Forgive me my dear for I never meant to hurt or make you cross. I forgive you when you make me sad and confused with my own self. Your existence in my life means a lot to me and I am truly…truly….grateful to Allah SWT…

If by chance we meet again, I hope to see you smile.

Its almost the end of the month of February… I hope and pray that may all goes well after this for time is always clicking and will pass us by soon. From here on I'll work hard and try to be a better person. Anyways, life must go on. 

Here are some of the pictures that i took to all that had happen during the two months before. After all, pictures worth a thousand words.  Enjoy :)

Really miss these two very much. Kak, Selamat Maju Jaya (^_^)!!!

My friend the one with the green scarf is transfered to another organization. So you can say it's a bit lonely for me

Ustaz Don datang ke kuching (^_^). Really grateful to be able to meet him in person though

Kak Aiza's last day in sarawak before she goes home the day after.

New found friend to keep me company in the office :)

The month of February also happens to be the month of sports. Our organization had a sports competition in Johor. although we did not gain first place in overall games but we do win a few medals. That's good enough for me

Just some random pics that i took. These are some of the practical students in the organization that undergo practical training as well. I'll be finishing in March but they will finish around May.

I love these biscuits. The only thing i'm missing is the icing to place it all together neatly.. hehe

Monthly Assembly. We have a new officer joining the organization and up here is the celebration of the staffs birthdays for the month of January.

Chinese New Year Celebration after the monthly assembly (^_^)

Two of the practical students are my juniors. Next to them is kak Fiza from the accounts department.

The look of cuteness that no one can resist XD!!!
He's one of the staff's nephew.

These two are always bickering or more to say, friendly fight. But this happens to be their last day in the office so i'm a bit sad actually. The both of them will be furthering their studies. One of them will be going back to campus while the other will be heading to Indonesia. I wish them all the success in life and the hereafter. May they be bless by Allah SWT.... Hurm.... I won't be hearing anyone bickering anymore from behind. It's going to get lonely but then again i think i'll do just fine.

So far so good, I'm doing fine. I did silently cried when they left. Although i cannot say that things are going smooth but there are happy days. Things are going to be a little busy at the moment for the repayment section since we are short of people. It's alright, we can overcome all obstacle in our way if we just believe in ourselves. I do have to say though that it will be very lonely indeed since one by one they moved on while i'm the only one left. Two more weeks then i will be the one moving on. 

Well till then dear readers... I'll finish this entry with one song dedicated to kak Aiza, Kak bara, Syakinah, Alif and Nana. Till we meet again :)

I force myself…
To hide these overflowing feelings
Once again today
I could only look off the distance
Holding tightly
To the little things we talked about
I am able to live somehow

Magical words
That the only two of us know
We dream
Though we didn’t have the time
Recalling the funny times, makes me happy
We’ll meet again, there’s no need for the promises

I collapse into a deep sleep
Then awake in tears
Like a song whispered in a crowd
What are you doing?
I want to see your smile
I raised my hands and threw my selfish ways to the sky

Magical words
Seems so short when spoken
But they lead to something
So wonderful
Nobody knows
Even if they did the magic won’t fade
Though we have to wait for the day we share the rest of the story

The flowers are so beautiful
Even the thorns are beautiful
The roots should be beautiful too

Magical words
That the only two of us know
We dream
Though we didn’t have the time
Recalling the funny times, makes me happy
We’ll meet again, there’s no need for the promises

We’ll meet again, we’ll meet again

 

(Spitz - Mahou no Kotoba)

Two more weeks to go...

It's been a while, but i'm afraid i have not so much words to say. Many things has happened lately. But for this entry i'll just let the lyrics below do the talking... These two lyrics contains many meanings...

Heora - The moonlight is setting (The moon that embraces the sun OST)

On nights when the wind blows
I softly close my eyes
It feels like you are right next to me
Wordlessly, I follow you and walk
Although every day,
I can’t even approach you step by step

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles me, who can’t say anything
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash

A cold darkness is falling down
A small star is rising
I call out to you several times a day but
Why can’t I hear an answer?
When I approach you
step by step, you get further

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles me, who can’t say anything
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash

My foolish trust just gets bigger
I hate my increasing expectations
I hate my splitting heart
Help me, help me
Help this heart that is
only filled with unhappiness

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles me, who can’t say anything
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles you, who I long for so much
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash

It becomes blackened tears that are falling


Baek Ji Young - After a long time (Rooftop Prince OST)

The talks we had as we looked at each other
The stories that only we knew
I guess I can’t erase them,
I can’t throw them away,
I can’t forget them

I look around these streets for the first time in a while
Whenever I pass this street, the good memories
They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
How about you?

The people look only happy
It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness
I try to pretend that I’m not
but I keep thinking of you

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
Tears fall

If I wait here,
will I be able to see you?
Then will I be able to tell you
how I feel right now?

Because I miss you, because I am missing you
That’s how I am, I only know you
Living without you makes me filled
with regret about everything
Because you’re not here,
because there are so many empty things
Again today, I long for that spot and
my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you

- See more at: http://kromanized.com/2012/03/23/%EB%B0%B1%EC%A7%80%EC%98%81baek-ji-young-%ED%95%9C%EC%B0%B8-%EC%A7%80%EB%82%98%EC%84%9Cafter-a-long-time-romanizedtranslated-lyrics/#sthash.Lcg314c8.dpuf

The talks we had as we looked at each other
The stories that only we knew
I guess I can’t erase them, I can’t throw them away, I can’t forget them
I look around these streets for the first time in a while
Whenever I pass this street, the good memories
They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing, I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories – they fall like stars
How about you?

The people look only happy
It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness
I try to pretend that I’m not but I keep thinking of you

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing, I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories – they fall like stars
Tears fall

If I wait here, will I be able to see you?
Then will I be able to tell you how I feel right now?

Because I miss you, because I am missing you
That’s how I am, I only know you
Living without you makes me filled with regret about everything
Because you’re not here, because there are so many empty things
Again today, I long for that spot and my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you

The talks we had as we looked at each other
The stories that only we knew
I guess I can’t erase them,
I can’t throw them away,
I can’t forget them

I look around these streets for the first time in a while
Whenever I pass this street, the good memories
They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
How about you?

The people look only happy
It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness
I try to pretend that I’m not
but I keep thinking of you

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
Tears fall

If I wait here,
will I be able to see you?
Then will I be able to tell you
how I feel right now?

Because I miss you, because I am missing you
That’s how I am, I only know you
Living without you makes me filled
with regret about everything
Because you’re not here,
because there are so many empty things
Again today, I long for that spot and
my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you

- See more at: http://kromanized.com/2012/03/23/%EB%B0%B1%EC%A7%80%EC%98%81baek-ji-young-%ED%95%9C%EC%B0%B8-%EC%A7%80%EB%82%98%EC%84%9Cafter-a-long-time-romanizedtranslated-lyrics/#sthash.Lcg314c8.dpuf

The talks we had as we looked at each other
The stories that only we knew
I guess I can’t erase them,
I can’t throw them away,
I can’t forget them

I look around these streets for the first time in a while
Whenever I pass this street, the good memories
They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
How about you?

The people look only happy
It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness
I try to pretend that I’m not
but I keep thinking of you

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
Tears fall

If I wait here,
will I be able to see you?
Then will I be able to tell you
how I feel right now?

Because I miss you, because I am missing you
That’s how I am, I only know you
Living without you makes me filled
with regret about everything
Because you’re not here,
because there are so many empty things
Again today, I long for that spot and
my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you

- See more at: http://kromanized.com/2012/03/23/%EB%B0%B1%EC%A7%80%EC%98%81baek-ji-young-%ED%95%9C%EC%B0%B8-%EC%A7%80%EB%82%98%EC%84%9Cafter-a-long-time-romanizedtranslated-lyrics/#sthash.Lcg314c8.dpuf

Hujan Yang Tenang....

Assalamualaikum & Good Day Dear Readers (^_^)....

Alhamdulillah dapat gak kita bersua kembali di lamans sesawang nih. Kali nie ana punya entry ada campur2 bahasa sikit. Lama da tak tulis dalam Bahasa Malaysia =)

The cloud looks like its going to rain.... but no matter, i like it anyways

So, what's going on you say? Well, nothing much has happen but if you ask if the files on my desk is decreasing its dead wrong. It will keep on coming and coming. Plus, it reminds me that i have to generate at a few more tomorrow before i can continue on to the next bulk. (Sigh)....

Its a working life after all. I don't mind as i like to busyness of the work. It keeps me occupied and i hate having to do nothing at all. At least i know my time is worth the spent. Its been over a month since the time i was assigned there. I am very thankful to Allah SWT for all that has happen so far. The skills and knowledge that i acquire here are all his blessings and i want to thank everyone in the department for teaching me. Love You Guys (^_^)!!!!

Lately, we receive a new practical student but oh dear, what worries me is not how she works but rather how will she fill in her report. Her course is not related to our department. She will not stay with us for long as she will be assign to another department later. Another practical friend of mine wants to change her department. This is due to her, how to say .. She's afraid that she does not have anything to write in her report as her boss always assigned her to take care of the library. She wanted to go to the department where i was working. Okay.... um, i don't know but if she moves would that mean that i had to take her job?... oh dear...

I don't mind but still... i know things will be awkward and that means i have to do another report...(-.-_)...But, if my boss kind enough not to let me go to the other department i might still stay in my department. I do have to say that routine work is boring but if you can find the joy, in the end it will turn out well. 

Allah SWT beri rezeki kepada kita atas apa yang tanggungjawab yang telah kita tunaikan. Tunaikanlah hakmu kepadaNya dan In Shaa Allah, Allah SWT akan memakbulkan hakNya kepadamu...

I tell myself that working is not all about just getting paid or try to find your calling. Its more than that actually. From time to time i began to understand many things. Being in the working world teaches me on how to be dicipline, independent and many more. Be true to myself and others. Make use of the time that is given to you to acquire useful things in order for your future to be blissful. But most of all, Carilah Redha Allah dan Rasulullah dalam setiap tindakan. In Shaa Allah! yang selebihnya akan mengikut.... =)

 I know its too early to say this but still, I somehow like the challenges and everyday affairs here. It keeps my brain and body active. The road is still far but with Allah's guidance and His blessings, i can overcome all obstacles. If i were to be transferred to another department, i will accept it fully because who knows? the grass maybe greener on the other side. And, more new experience and memories to make (^^,).....

Well, that's all from me today. While writing this post, I am currently in my campus. My sister is sitting for her final examinations. I wish her good luck and also to all degree students. May Allah bless all of you..

Till then dear readers =)

Wasalamualaikum

It's A Practical Life...=)

Assalamu'alaikum & Good Day Dear readers (^_^)....

Fuu~~~ lega dapat update. Sorry for not updating lately. The semester have just started and i am now proudly to say that i am permanently going for practical training! Alhamdulillah. Syukur sangat-sangat. I am working back at the old organization where i once applied for practical training. Sadly, i am not under the supervision of my old boss but now under a new boss and a new section. the last time i was there i was placed on level two but now i am placed in level one.

The work and all? Yup it's hard but from time to time, I've got a hang of it. I do have to say that i do miss my old compartment and a lot has changed since i'm not there. I have tons of work to do and many information to key in the computer. Let's just hope that it's not getting harder by the weeks.

The first day is always the hardest. I don't doubt that completely. It was a disaster and i don't blame anyone but myself. Inside the letter, i was placed in another sub headquarters. So, i went there to report myself and to my horror, they told me to go to the main office. Masha'Allah, the main office is not near! I don't know how to drive nor do i have anyone to drive me there besides my mother.

the time was already pass eight o'clock. I was clearly very late. To add to my nervous and dismay, i did not have enough credits to call my mother. I went to the nearby polyclinic to ask whether if there is a telephone booth at their place. The nurse kindly point out the way. when i arrive i took out my purse for a spare change. In a big city lonely and unsure, i am only left with thirty cent. I tried to calm myself down when my mom did not pick up the phone. it turns out that she left it in the care while she goes shopping for vegetables.

(Sigh).

I arrive at the main headquarters an hour after that. Geez! (-_______________-''') Don't wan to go to that part anymore. The HR boss nearly laugh as she saw my condition. All she can say is let it be a lesson to all. She wished me good luck and welcome to the office. I was then introduced to my new supervisor and place under the legal and repayment section.

As usual, I'll let the pictures tell the story..enjoy :D

Start of work. Must finish la...

The coldness of the air conditioner was so strong that i felt my hands went numb as i tap on the keyboard

Alhamdulillah! I'm on level two now (^_^)!! the small piece on the folder is a pin that i won

Mr. Zero plushie! My sister won him during our ESQ training

Two senior practical students. (kakak Barbara & kakak Aizah). Kak Aizah is in the same department as me. I Learned a lot from them.They are both in the same university but different course as i am. they are both degree students. Wishing them Good Luck for their upcoming exams next month. =D

Office's Annual Dinner. We Practical Students got invited ;) The ones in front are my colleagues. One is in the same department as i am and the other belongs to the Education department

On the next day we have Family day. Nice! :D

There's a story behind these two events. Before the family day event, our company had an annual dinner. Me and my clumsiness. My instinct tells me not to use high heels and turns out i was right. But my mother insisted me on wearing one because its a dinner party. Due to that, i fell or more to say slide down the staircase that night. OUCH!! A fellow colleague help me to get on my feet back. That is one of the most embarrassing moments i have ever experience during my whole lifetime. I think i'm going to stop wearing heels for a while...(=__=''). Family day event was held on the next day. Due to the pain, i woke up late. i had a hard time sleeping. My leg was starting to hurt a little but i had to attend the family day event. The event started at 7:30 but i came at 8:30. One hour late. but thank God no one notice except my boss and my colleague from our department. (=___=) tet..... Just my day...

Cooking Contest is also well on the go (^_^). There was an opening at first and i was selected by my boss to enter but i came late plus, i don't bring any equipment. Everyone's cooking was awsome! (O.O,)

Kak Aiza & her little friend and a hyper one at that

Football but with added touch. hehe..

Aww, Cute (>.<,)!!! We played with her along the way. Her father is one of the participants that won the cooking competition. He got second place.

Well, that's just about everything. In Sha Allah, i'll update more on what's going on. I hardly have time to continue to write my manuscript due to practical training. But all in all, things have been a little stress but smooth sailing. Moga semua urusan selepas ini akan dipermudahkanNya.. Amin. =)

Till then dear readers! Wasalamualaikum....

  

P/S: The food & drinks during  family day were pretty delicious ;D

Semester Holidays..

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good Day everyone (-.-,)...

Last week have been a busy one indeed its the 100th day since my late grandmother's death. My uncle from miri arrive a few days before and so everyone is busy with the work to prepare untuk makan 100 arwah....
My little sister said to me that she still cannot accept the fact that my late grandmother died. To her she was always a strong woman & always been there for us. I also cannot accept that fact but i tired my best to keep her memories alive. She was a wonderful person to all of us and will always remain in our hearts forever. Al-Fatihah...

Anyways, last week as well, i receive a phone call from my lecturer regarding my practical training. (Finally, after a long wait)... But i do not know whether to say if it is a good news or not. According to my lecturer, the place that i chose to undergo my practical training is already full but they have three more seats or as in empty fillings to fill. There were three students including me who chose that place to go for practical training. I was relieved but at the same time kind of sad. This is because two of the students chosen will be placed at the main headquarters while one will be placed at the customer service department at another headquarters which is situated in the city. (Sigh) I can see this one coming....since the person they chose... was me....(-_-)

I don't mind much but it would be nice to work at the main headquarters since its close to my home. When i receive that news, something in my heart felt strange. I do not know whether i should say that i felt rather cheated or being pitied. Oh well, All in all i just want to finish my diploma and move on with life. My mother on the other hand said to me that if the lecturer does not call me she will take the matters into her own hands. She wants me to work at her friends place. I was having second thoughts about it. My heart tells me no but my brain logically tells go for it since it was for the better. I cannot wait for anyone. Enough about that one, my sister then came barging in telling me i should go an accept the work at another company she chose. ARGGHHH!!!.. Please! (>.<) Both of you are making it hard for me to choose. Plus, it hurts my brain to think too much.

I keep praying to Allah SWT for help regarding this matter. I want to chose a place where my heart can be at ease and easily my Iman can adapt to. There were two places i wrote on my resume for my lecturer to send. Before I receive the phone call, I had a dream that me and two of my juniors that chose the same company that we will go for our practical training met inside a meeting room. After a brief talk from a man (I think his role is a manager) we separated and go to different departments. Strangely, the place i was at change into a hospital instead. I walked and walked but I saw nothing but patients, doctors and nurses all around me.

Eh? Isn't the place I'm working suppose to be dealing with office work and all? How come it turned into a hospital? beside, the smell of medicine still lingers around and around (...Guess my love for medic really still lives huh?...). The next day, i receive the phone call and after a while, it hit me! The other headquarters in the city is situated next to a Polyclinic! That's probably it! How Allah SWT works in many ways to give me hints and i am very grateful to Him for everything. I just hope that after this, all goes well...

My lecturer says that the company will give her the letters of acceptance within this week and she would call me to collect all of it later. So far, i do not receive any phone calls yet and it's killing me in the inside. If the company is full just chose the second one then. It'll be fine anyways. I want to move on and i want to finish my diploma just like everyone else....Moga Allah SWT permudahkan segala perjalanan selepas ini....(-.-)

Well, that's all from me. The rest of the days have been pretty boring actually. I haven't gone out of the house much. In fact, come to think of it, i never go out at all! (sigh)...i think i do need to get my driver's license. at least, i can go to the library. I do not want my mother to send me because it will be troublesome for her to go out from work again and again. Till then dear readers...

Wasalamualaikum...

Salam Maal Hijrah 1434...

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good Day everyone..(-.-,)

Terlebih dahulu ana nak ucapkan Selamat Menyambut Maal Hijrah bagi seluruh Muslimin & Muslimah sedunia. Moga dengan datangnya tahun baru ini kita dapat manfaatkan dengan sebaik-baiknya. Moga Allah SWT mengampunkan segala-segala perbuatan kita pada tahun lepas yang boleh mendatangkan murkanya & Moga Allah SWT perkenankan segala amal kebaikann yang kita lakukan. Amin.

Maal Hijrah bukanlah sekadar menyambut kedatangan tahun baru dalam Islam akan tetapi ia lebih dari itu. Ia juga umpama sebuah perjalanan mencari redha Illahi. Sesungguhnya ayat Al-Quran itu adalah kata-kata Allah dan tiadalah benar melainkan benar sahaja. 

 "Orang-orang yang beriman dan berhijrah serta berjihad dengan harta benda dan diri, mereka adalah lebih tinggi darjatnya pada sisi Allah (SWT). Mereka itulah orang-orang yang mendapat kemenangan. Tuhan mengembirakan mereka dengan rahmat daripada-Nya keredhaan dan syurga. Di dalamnya mereka memperoleh kesenangan yang abadi. Mereka kekal di dalamnya selama-lamanya. Sesungguhnya disisi Allah itu pahala yang sangat besar." 

(Surah At-Taubah, Ayat 20)

Sini ada satu puisi yg ana nak share. Sama2lah kita ambil iktibar & pengajaran daripadanya. Selain itu, marilah kita sama2 mohon doa kepada Allah SWT agar penghijrahan diri selepas ini menjadi penuh berkah, penuh dengan kasih sayang & RahmatNya. Amin... Janganlah kita ulangi kesilapan masa lalu & sebaiknya kita lakukanlah yang terbaik dalam hidup tidak lain & tidak bukan akan tetapi hanyalah bagi menharapkan keredhaan & ketaqwaan  pada Allah SWT. Moga segala amalan kita juga akan diterimaNya..Amin...

Muhasabah Maal Hijrah

Di awal tahun baru hijrah,
Ku sujud menghambakan diri pada-Mu,
Hati terus merintih mengenangkan dosa lalu,
Kotornya diri dengan maksiat dan noda,

Lemahnya jiwa berdepan dengan dunia,
Lalainya diri dari mengingati-Nya,
Astaghfirullahal 'adzim....
Banyaknya kekurangan diri,
Ampuni hamba-Mu ini Ya Allah.

Aku sedar,
Jiwa yang tandus taqwa,
Terdorong lakukan apa sahaja,
Sanggup menentang arus kehendak Ilahi,
Yang difikir hanyalah untuk kepuasan diri,
Maka, pabila dosa telah larut,
Gelaplah hati, kotorlah jiwa, murunglah diri,
Itulah fitrah sang pendosa,
Yang leka dari pencipta-Nya.

Namun, bila iman hadir di jiwa,
Mata hati mula bekerja,
Baru kusedar, betapa diri jauh dari-Mu Tuhan,
Asyik sibuk untuk dunia,
Hinggakan solat sering kutunda,
Al-Quran pun malas dibaca,
Lidahku kotor dengan kata-kata dusta,
Mata ini tak kujaga dari perkara dosa,
Telinga ini mendengar apa yang tak sepatutnya,
Kaki ini sering melangkah ke tempat lagha.

Ya Allah,
Jauh sekali diriku dengan peribadi kekasih-Mu,
Kau teladan terbaik bagi seluruh umat,
Ingin sekali aku mencontohi peribadimu, Rasulullah
Meskipun dirimu suci tanpa dosa,
Solat malam tidak pernah kau lupa,
Munajatmu di tengah malam jadi rutin harian,
Pengharapanmu pada Tuhan terlalu tinggi,
Sedang aku???
Seorang hamba yang penuh dosa....
Solat fardhu pun kurang dijaga,
Apatah lagi solat malam sepertimu, Ya Nabiyullah.

Sungguh,

Aku ingin berubah,
Menjadi seorang hamba-Mu yang taat,
Aku takut akan azab kubur,
Aku gerun dengan dahsyatnya neraka-Mu,
Dan kurindukan nikmat syurga.

Jadi,
Kupohon padaMu wahai Tuhan,
Campakkan ke dalam hati ini niat yang tulus,
Ingin sekali aku berdiri di hadapan-Mu dengan jiwa yang tunduk,
Ingin sekali aku rukuk pada-Mu dengan hati yang pasrah,
Dan ingin sekali ku sujud ke hadhrat-Mu dengan punuh kehambaan,

Ya Rahim,
Sucikan hatiku dari sifat munafik,
Sucikan amalku daripada riyak,
Sucikan lidahku daripada dusta dan mataku dari khianat,
Jadikanlah diriku seorang anak yang solehah,
Yang bisa mendamaikan hati Ummi dan Abiku,
Jadikanlah diriku seorang mukminat solehah,
Kerna mukminat solehah itu lebih cantik dari bidadari syurga.

Dan...
Kurniakan aku kesabaran untuk menunaikan ketaatan pada-Mu,
Anugerahkan aku kesabaran dalam meninggalkan maksiat pada-Mu,
Jadikanlah hati ini hati yang sentiasa mengingati-Mu,
Agar dapat ku miliki sekeping hati yang tenang,
Jauh dari hasad dengki dan kepalsuan dunia,
Hadirkanlah cintaku kepada-Mu mengatasi segalanya,
Agar Kau temukan hati yang terbaik buat diriku.

Moga dapat kukecapi, kebahagiaan yang hakiki,
Suatu hari nanti...
Amin....

Sumber Puisi : http://www.iluvislam.com/tazkirah/nasihat/3962-muhasabah-maal-hijrah.html

  

Marilah kita sama-sama membaca Doa Akhir Tahun & Awal Tahun ..(-.-,)

Well, that's all from me.Apa yang baik itu semuanya datang daripada Allah SWT & segala keburukan itu datang hanyalah daripada kesilapan diri sendiri. Till then dear readers...Wasalamu'Alaikum