Some Semester Indeed....

Assalamualaikum & Good Day...

September the 2nd... wow, really that long huh. Anyways, i've been very busy with the studies and i have no time to enjoy myself. Last semester i did not do well for my exams and the bad part of it was i had to repeat two subject. Well, first semester isn't always the greatest...

New semester cam and heck these past few months have been HELL! oh... yes indeed. At least i get to finish and redeem myself with a bang. As much as i like to rant about what's going on for the past months but i'm afraid i have to cut it short. i don't like to go to the details too much in here. Anyways, this semester has been awkward yet pleasant.

My classes are still the same except that i had to repeat two subjects and which means i had to join in with the junior students class. At first it was so awkward because they look at you as if you came from another planet. I mean,  really? (-_o).... From time to time, they all got used to my presence and it was okay. they were all nice people... and i hope they stay that way. The only thing that sometimes bugs me is grouping. Well, i'm not really keen in socializing and probably that's why i'm always labeled as a lone ranger in campus... i guess. 

I still remember though.. i'm now in my 4th semester but because i repeated two subjects i can only register for only four courses since my credit hours were a little low. Somehow, it feels like diploma again. My classmates that are in the same batch as i am, well... they are nice people yet... i feel rather like an outcast whenever i'm around them. I don't mind really... i'm used to it. But, sometimes i do think that it's nice to have a company once in a while. This semester, they all went overseas for an academic trip. I didn't get to go because i did not take the subject required the same as they did. I'm happy they got home safe and sound. I'm not really keen on flying so i hope next semester's academic trip does not involve with flying. (O_O)...

And there comes another memory where we had to organize the faculty dinner party. It was a wonderful night for everyone but not for me....Our faculty dinner's theme was masquerade so everyone was required to wear a mask. I did not like the mask that my sister made for me. It was really nice of her to made it for me. i thank her but it was not necessary. In the end i did not wear it because the mask made me look like the Phantom of the Opera gone wrong. Not to mention my plus size outfit. Allah, have mercy upon me......  Everything was fine for me that night that is until someone accidentally knocked a classmate of mine's mask. it was a Darth Vader mask and oh God... the crack was big. I happen to be standing near and the last person to hold that thing. before that, i placed the mask near the reception table but someone accidentally knocked it over and it fell down. 

(Sigh)... all of us were shocked but not as shocked as i was as i saw the mess. Even if it wasn't my fault but i felt that everyone thought the fault was mine. I'm not the kind of person to run away from a problem instead i try to find a solution to overcome it. So i told him about it. he accepted my apology but it did not make me feel nice. Even if it's not my fault... i felt guilty about it anyway... I didn't really enjoy the party that night. In fact, it happen to be the worst dinner party i ever attend in my life... the worst ever. The video presentation was suppose to be the highlight of the event but truth be told, it hurts not only my own feelings but some people as well. Oh well, I don't really fit in that much with people anyway....In the end, a loner is still alone...

Despite the boring routine and the increase of loneliness in my life i still find things that i'm still able to smile about. Though life is tough.... it stills shows me it's pleasant side. I'm thankful for that. I'm content with everything. I'm not really alone because i know i still have Allah  and my family and those who i deem friends in my life. Alhamdulillah.... I thank Allah for everything... 

Final exams are coming up and i have to study in order for me to get my CGPA up again. I pray that may Allah ease everything for me and my classmates. I may not write for a while but i'll try to write as often as i can and keep you posted. Well, that's all from this writer. Till then dear readers... =)

Wasalamualaikum... =)