Practical Training...Supp Paper & the list goes on

Assalamu'Alaikum & Good Day dear readers...(-_-)....

This post is going to be a bit long as it will cover some of the things that happened in a while....

It has been a dream of mine to finish my diploma ever since i started this course. But Alas, Allah has more plans for me than i had for myself. In fact, i almost lose hope like things were never meant to be...Who am i to judge what is going to happen and who am i to defy. O Allah, please forgive me for all the past sins that i have done for your blessings is the only thing i seek....

Last week, I was so worried regarding my supplementary examination result was not yet out. This is because if my supp paper result did not turn out like it seems, i have to go back to campus to repeat another semester. I MOST DEFINITELY CANNOT TAKE THAT!!!! Either way, i want to end this...i really, really do. Too long i have been stuck in a cage (Campus). I call it a cage because it suits the title. I never really had a good university life...much.

Back to the story, when i called my lecturer and inform her my problems, she told me to just go to the organization and go for practical training. I did as i was told even with a worried heart. What will become of me there? the dreadful thing that i was thinking i hope not to make any mistake on my first day. I arrived around 7:30. I had to wait for a while until my friend came so that wee can go to report ourselves together. The place where i applied is the place where my grandfather used to work. I sort of followed in his footsteps. Me and a friend of mine report ourselves at the Human Resource Department. My friend got the post at the Higher Education Department  which is at level one and I was placed at the Quality & Practical Department, that's on level 2 of the building. 

This is the compartment where i sit. To tell you the truth..i missed it dearly...

We were given a tour around the building and then we went to our designate department. My Department was probably the happiest place where I've ever worked. The whole level was like a one big department. Besides the Quality Department, there was also the Human Resource, Financial and Public Sector & Corporate department on level 2. The boss office is in front while the workers have their own compartment. I was placed at the end of the room. To my surprise, my table was the only one facing behind unlike the others. That compartment of mine was very near to the pantry and the exit door. (Between you and me, I love my place very much). In front of me was a photostat machine. behind me was Mr. Jeff and on my left was Mr. Nizam. In front of him was Kak Mim. On my first day, i did not know exactly what i was suppose to do.

Luckily, Kak mim, one of the workers kindly show how things are handle here in the office. I got along well with the others. It felt nice to have companions once in a while. I'm not the type of person that concerns myself with people much since I've always been much of a recluse. But its practical training, i have to cast that lone ranger attitude and start mix with others. Kak Mim is one of the Quality and Practical Department workers including, abg nazriq, and Kak Qam. My supervisor is Puan Intan. My first impression on her, who is this beautiful lady? really, i cannot believe she is a mother of two and 35 to boot!((O_O))...wow. Next to us is the Public and Corporate Department headed by a senior who was once in the same university as i am. The people in the office were very nice and wonderful indeed & i enjoyed my time there.:D

Alas, What happen is the will of Allah and only He alone is able to make miracles happen.Whatever happens, i was thankful for it....Alhamdulillah...Truly...deep in my tiny heart...I am truly incandescently happy and content to Allah S.W.T for everything. For the first time in my life, I felt myself having another reason to move forward once more. This is something that i like to call happiness of a dream.

One thing i know though, All these years, I never stopped praying.... I always pray to Allah S.W.T that may one day we meet again.  

Everything happens is the will of Allah S.W.T. and they each have their own purpose. I believe, our meeting again has its purpose too. Alas, i was caught with the flow of time and my supplementary paper, well, i failed. Due to that, i have to go back to campus and repeat another semester. Only Allah S.W.T knows how much it broke and tore my heart to pieces. There were times i felt like quitting but....i have a dream!!

I got this far already and i want to end this. I don't want to cry or weep about how dull and stupid i am. I'll turn this problem into an opportunity to fix myself. I'm going to be better because i don't want to give up.This is Allah S.W.T trial for me and everything happen has its reason. I think its a blessing because, He wants me to realize that there is more that meets the eye. He made me realize that I still have hope to repent and a chance to improve myself even more. I'm so thankful of His blessings. This is not a defeat nor is it the end. its something that i like to call adventure of another beginning....until time stops for me, my only wish is...that may Allah S.W.T bless me in everything I do..Amin...:)


Back to the story, I went back to the office to hand in my badge. I told my supervisor about my exam result  and they were quite shock actually since it was hard to let me go. I told them, it's alright, I'll be back again. Insya'ALLAH.... I have yet to experience a lot of things in that organization and working has never been this wonderful. I'll be back in the middle of November this year to pursue back my practical training at the same organization. It's not goodbye. I also have yet to draw a portrait of my supervisor's family that i promised her. I'll do that later :D..Plus, i also accepted a challenge from one of my colleagues that I'll loose 10 kg and come back looking healthy & slim...(Alright, I accept that challenge!!)


Insya'ALLAH, if Allah S.W.T wills it...we will meet again...So near yet so far....but at least Allah S.W.T has given me hope & something to believe in. 
For Allah S.W.T i leave you for a while. The love that has blossomed inside my heart is a gift from Allah. S.W.T and with that I'll cherish it so that it will not get tarnished by laziness, idle, and the evil whispers of the syaitan & nafsu to bring me down. I do not want to idolize my love for you too much because its your Creator to whom that I should love more. I have a dream and with that, i want to achieve it so that one day, when i am ready, i can reach out to you. If it is our destiny,...then, i leave you in the care of Allah S.W.T. May Allah S.W.T bless our destiny together and our meeting one day. All in all, Put Our Trust In Allah S.W.T. for He is the best planner for all the provisions that we will face from here on..

"Ya Allah, jikalau dia milikku, maka tautkanlah hatinya dengan hatiku keranaMu. Jika dia bukan milikku, damaikanlah hati kami dengan segala ketentuanMu..."

till then dear readers..

Wasalamu'Alaikum...