After a long haitus i'm back!!. Really, i need to update this blog of mine. The last month of practical training was not so bad but not so good either. But i believe that everything happen is the will of Allah SWT and there are reasons things happen...
March was the last month of my practical training and the boy it was tough consider that i'm the only practical student left in my department. So there were a lot of errands and this and that. But no matter, i'm quite used to the busy life now anyways. The only thing that keeps me wondering whenever i return home is.. what's the next step?
I only realize that after practical training, i will no longer be a student anymore as i will be graduating soon. (Been busy with reports and all, didnt have time to think about anything much) Graduate.... the moment i've been waiting my whole diploma life... ''What's the next step'' It haunts my head for quite a while. Its not that i don't want to continue my studies but considering my family's financial situation and i am now jobless, it's going to be hard. My three siblings are still studying, one is doing degree while the other two is still schooling. Plus, the both of them will sit for a big examination by the end of the year, SPM & PMR.
I want to find work for the time being. One thing I've learned so far regarding the working world and finding a job..it is NEVER EASY. If it was easy, then there will be 100% employment already! But its not... (Sigh~~) i try not to let this kind of matter get to me. I will get a job somehow and if not, i'll start my own business :) I like being my own boss anyways... hehe..
Anyways, back to the last month during practical training, it was fun while it last, the first week, my friend went overseas to pursue his studies while another friend of mine went back to campus. I had to run errands and went up and down the stairs to the file room. (Ya Allah.. i miss that moment). Everyone in the office were helpful and it makes me reallys sad that my practical training will end soon. My boss? well he's okay. Though he was sad that soon there will be no one to help with the workload in the office. I'm kinda relief a little but at the same time i'll miss the work there. I love the working environment at the organization i am working. Although there are some stressful events but in the end, there is always something to smile and laugh about. We had a little farewell party in the office and i was asked to say a few words. My firend cried when it was her turn to give a speech. We had a nice farewell party and in the end of the day, i bid everyone in every section from level one to three goodbye.
For what is worth, Everything that i do, i do it with all my heart. I'm going to miss everyone in the office. Everyone had been very helpful and nice to me, although some aren't, I forgive and pray for the best of you guys anyways :) I pray that May Allah SWT bless all of them in the organization and may the achieve success in the future. Goodbye dear friends! until we meet again next time.
~Special message~ ....To the nice you...
I had always thought you were the insensitive one. But still, in a good one at that. It was selfish of me to hope something that i do not know whether it will happen or not. But all in all, i just want you to know one thing. Up till now, i was very sincere towards you. I hope you realize it one day and i hope that it still not too late for you to notice that all these years i never stop praying for you. We are getting older but even if ten or twenty years passed... the feeling in my heart will always be the same. I pray that may Allah SWT bless you here in the world and the hereafter. I will always pray for the best of you.... always. Although it's hard to let the memories go, but i believe Allah SWT has even better things for me than i have for myself. If by chance, we should meet... I do hope you remember me... a smile from you is good to. Just like ever since we were young. I pray that may Allah SWT look after both of us. If my time comes, pray for me. For all those years, I pray to him that one day, we will all be reunited in his garden of paradise.. In Shaa Allah. I thank Allah SWT for everything. He still gives me life and i get to meet you again. I am glad to see you're doing rather well than me... truly i am.
Ya Allah... Lindungilah dia...
Setiap langkahnya, setiap hela nafasnya, setiap kelip matanya, setiap degupan jantungnya...
Banyak yang ingin kupohon dan kuharapkan untuk dia...
Tapi Ya Allah... Jikalay satu sahaja yang dimakbulkan olehMu...
Lindungilah Iman di hatinya..
Kerana dengan iman yang ada, dia pasti selamat di dunia dan akhirat.... :')
Till then dear readers....
P/S: here's a few pictures i took during that month... enjoy :)
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| My Friend's boss. My boss was not present due to outstation. |
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| The ladies of the Education Department (^_^) I'm gonna miss them all soooo much |
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| Ah, the lovely people of level two (exept the lady in the end on the right. She's on level three) Bye everyone! untill we meet again. Andy, the guy over there, i heard from my friend that he went to pursue his studies. He left the office one week after i did. The lady with the spectacles in white, her name is nearly has the same pronounciation as mine. Nice! :) they always say that i look like her. found it a bit true..:) |
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| My former boss and colleage. Miss them both very much. Although it was a short notice, i feel as if we're close already. My former Head of Section is having a third child on the way. I pray for her and her baby (^_^) May they both be blessed. |
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| Its tradition that when one leaves this office, especially for practical students or if one feels like writing a note, we are asked to write something to hung on the friendship tree (below). I wanted to make something special for my department. I love to draw so i drew a little bit of this and that. Mind you, pictures are worth a thousand words. (^_^)... Good luck to the repayment section. I pray that may the work be finished quick and burden be lessen... Thank you for your hospitality and all the knowledge you share with me. I learned a lot from everyone. Keep in touch! love you guys so much |
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| ze friendship tree. me thinks.... it needs TLC.. seriously, it looked more like two spinal cord tied up but with added bones attached. too uncreative. I hope they will consider a creative way to hung these messages. Instead of a tree, why not a blackboard? they can design it in any ways they want. Merapu pulak!!.. hehe.. I should have place this problem in my suggestion column... |
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| This view, i miss is sooo much as it always accompany me whenever i wait for my mom to pick me up before i go home.. really love the view. although not really the same when nigtfalls. one wish they were never there during the night. believe me... i know so... |
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| I guess... this would praobably the view i miss the most. There is a sofa in the lobby and i usually sat there instead of waiting outside. this is always the view i see. (The song sang by Heora - the moonlight is setting accompanied me always while i wait to go home) Beautiful memories happen here sometimes for me. It makes me want to cry whenever i look at it. waitng....and waiting...and waiting.... it doesnt matter.... I'll wait.... Cukuplah Allah bagiku dan Dia maha mengerti apa yang dilalui hati ini...Hanya kepadaNya aku berserah atas segala-galanya... |
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| (sigh) as usual... for over three months now.... i am always the last person to go home. But during this time, it was not the usual. Apparently my mother had to extend her work. The guards had to close the office and i had to wait outside all alone in the dark. It was a little scary but still, i'm kinda use to it. My mom arrived around 8:15 p.m. Wow... that would probably be the longest one rather than the usual 7:05 p.m |
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| Thank you to kak Mul for this lovely gift (^_^) hehe, I'll cherish and keep it good. I really like the design and craftof this keychain though. its lovey and cute! |
