Saturday, March 2, 2013

Mahou No Kotoba...


Assalamualaikum & Good Day dear readers....

Time...It always gets me every single minute. Sometime I wish that it would go rather slowly but at times, I do wish for it to be fast.

Time is very limited compared to the things that you want to do and to the things that you have to do.

Since the start of practical training, I always wonder what can I gain from here. So far, I acquire many experiences but still… I still feel that there something missing. I think I know very much what that is but I cannot write it here because I’m afraid that the mentioned one might be amongst the readers.

The thing is, to me time is always so short. My late grandmother always says that do not be cheated by time. I always remember her words every time if there is responsibilities needed to be done.

It has been good here though there were some tear jerking moments. Not because of work load but a friend of mine finished undergo her training and is now back in her homeland. I really miss her very much. Our section is always noisy with her and another colleague of mine usually yick yacking in the wee hours of the morning.

Another news came up that another colleague of mine will be leaving soon to further his studies. Things seemed to get a little quiet in my practical life. But still, it’s life. The wheels of life is slowly turning and there are people that comes and goes in one’s life. The most important thing is we do not forget them. Once you met someone, you never really forget them. I wish them both all the best in the world and he hereafter. Amin…

I am left with only three more weeks before returning to campus for  the last phase of my practical training in which I will be giving a presentation to the evaluators that will evaluate me and my friends later. It’s scary and nerve wrecking but in the end it all will come to pass.

I can’t help to say that I do.. am going to miss diploma life. The memories that happen within these five long years is indeed a blessing from Allah SWT to me. The silly times, the good ones, the bitter ones and many more have taught me a lot. Heck, I gained a lot of experience too. But most of all, I’m glad that it’s finally over. My waiting will be over soon and I will be able to move with my life just like any human in this world. All I hope and pray that May Allah SWT bless with his kindness,  and have mercy upon me and my family and everyone during our lifetime this world and the hereafter.

To You….

Words cannot express on how much I am very contend to Allah SWT for having me to meet you once more after all my years of separation from you. Truly, I am grateful…

When I see you again it reminds me how the world is small and how powerful Allah SWT is in our life. When I see you again, it made me believe that miracles do happen. If it is the will of Allah SWT for us to meet then we will meet again but if so writes the will of Allah SWT that we do not meet anymore, I pray that may we be reunited in His Garden of Paradise. By that time, I wish to see you smile to me like you are now.
I apologize if during our meeting and the encounters we go through, I have hurt your feelings. Forgive me my dear for I never meant to hurt or make you cross. I forgive you when you make me sad and confused with my own self. Your existence in my life means a lot to me and I am truly…truly….grateful to Allah SWT…

If by chance we meet again, I hope to see you smile.

Its almost the end of the month of February… I hope and pray that may all goes well after this for time is always clicking and will pass us by soon. From here on I'll work hard and try to be a better person. Anyways, life must go on. 

Here are some of the pictures that i took to all that had happen during the two months before. After all, pictures worth a thousand words.  Enjoy :)



Really miss these two very much. Kak, Selamat Maju Jaya (^_^)!!!

My friend the one with the green scarf is transfered to another organization. So you can say it's a bit lonely for me

Ustaz Don datang ke kuching (^_^). Really grateful to be able to meet him in person though

Kak Aiza's last day in sarawak before she goes home the day after.

New found friend to keep me company in the office :)

The month of February also happens to be the month of sports. Our organization had a sports competition in Johor. although we did not gain first place in overall games but we do win a few medals. That's good enough for me

Just some random pics that i took. These are some of the practical students in the organization that undergo practical training as well. I'll be finishing in March but they will finish around May.

I love these biscuits. The only thing i'm missing is the icing to place it all together neatly.. hehe

Monthly Assembly. We have a new officer joining the organization and up here is the celebration of the staffs birthdays for the month of January.
Chinese New Year Celebration after the monthly assembly (^_^)

Two of the practical students are my juniors. Next to them is kak Fiza from the accounts department.
The look of cuteness that no one can resist XD!!!
He's one of the staff's nephew.





These two are always bickering or more to say, friendly fight. But this happens to be their last day in the office so i'm a bit sad actually. The both of them will be furthering their studies. One of them will be going back to campus while the other will be heading to Indonesia. I wish them all the success in life and the hereafter. May they be bless by Allah SWT.... Hurm.... I won't be hearing anyone bickering anymore from behind. It's going to get lonely but then again i think i'll do just fine.



So far so good, I'm doing fine. I did silently cried when they left. Although i cannot say that things are going smooth but there are happy days. Things are going to be a little busy at the moment for the repayment section since we are short of people. It's alright, we can overcome all obstacle in our way if we just believe in ourselves. I do have to say though that it will be very lonely indeed since one by one they moved on while i'm the only one left. Two more weeks then i will be the one moving on. 

Well till then dear readers... I'll finish this entry with one song dedicated to kak Aiza, Kak bara, Syakinah, Alif and Nana. Till we meet again :)


I force myself…
To hide these overflowing feelings
Once again today
I could only look off the distance
Holding tightly
To the little things we talked about
I am able to live somehow

Magical words
That the only two of us know
We dream
Though we didn’t have the time
Recalling the funny times, makes me happy
We’ll meet again, there’s no need for the promises

I collapse into a deep sleep
Then awake in tears
Like a song whispered in a crowd
What are you doing?
I want to see your smile
I raised my hands and threw my selfish ways to the sky

Magical words
Seems so short when spoken
But they lead to something
So wonderful
Nobody knows
Even if they did the magic won’t fade
Though we have to wait for the day we share the rest of the story

The flowers are so beautiful
Even the thorns are beautiful
The roots should be beautiful too

Magical words
That the only two of us know
We dream
Though we didn’t have the time
Recalling the funny times, makes me happy
We’ll meet again, there’s no need for the promises

We’ll meet again, we’ll meet again
 
(Spitz - Mahou no Kotoba)

Two more weeks to go...


It's been a while, but i'm afraid i have not so much words to say. Many things has happened lately. But for this entry i'll just let the lyrics below do the talking... These two lyrics contains many meanings...

Heora - The moonlight is setting (The moon that embraces the sun OST)

On nights when the wind blows
I softly close my eyes
It feels like you are right next to me
Wordlessly, I follow you and walk
Although every day,
I can’t even approach you step by step

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles me, who can’t say anything
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash

A cold darkness is falling down
A small star is rising
I call out to you several times a day but
Why can’t I hear an answer?
When I approach you
step by step, you get further

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles me, who can’t say anything
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash

My foolish trust just gets bigger
I hate my increasing expectations
I hate my splitting heart
Help me, help me
Help this heart that is
only filled with unhappiness

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles me, who can’t say anything
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash

The moonlight is setting,
A black moon is setting in my heart
It resembles you, who I long for so much
If I long for it so much and call out and call out
It’s a memory that became blackened ash
It becomes blackened tears that are falling


Baek Ji Young - After a long time (Rooftop Prince OST)

The talks we had as we looked at each other
The stories that only we knew
I guess I can’t erase them,
I can’t throw them away,
I can’t forget them
I look around these streets for the first time in a while
Whenever I pass this street, the good memories
They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps
After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
How about you?
The people look only happy
It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness
I try to pretend that I’m not
but I keep thinking of you
After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
Tears fall
If I wait here,
will I be able to see you?
Then will I be able to tell you
how I feel right now?
Because I miss you, because I am missing you
That’s how I am, I only know you
Living without you makes me filled
with regret about everything
Because you’re not here,
because there are so many empty things
Again today, I long for that spot and
my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you
- See more at: http://kromanized.com/2012/03/23/%EB%B0%B1%EC%A7%80%EC%98%81baek-ji-young-%ED%95%9C%EC%B0%B8-%EC%A7%80%EB%82%98%EC%84%9Cafter-a-long-time-romanizedtranslated-lyrics/#sthash.Lcg314c8.dpuf
The talks we had as we looked at each other
The stories that only we knew
I guess I can’t erase them, I can’t throw them away, I can’t forget them
I look around these streets for the first time in a while
Whenever I pass this street, the good memories
They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing, I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories – they fall like stars
How about you?

The people look only happy
It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness
I try to pretend that I’m not but I keep thinking of you

After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing, I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories – they fall like stars
Tears fall

If I wait here, will I be able to see you?
Then will I be able to tell you how I feel right now?

Because I miss you, because I am missing you
That’s how I am, I only know you
Living without you makes me filled with regret about everything
Because you’re not here, because there are so many empty things
Again today, I long for that spot and my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you

The talks we had as we looked at each other
The stories that only we knew
I guess I can’t erase them,
I can’t throw them away,
I can’t forget them
I look around these streets for the first time in a while
Whenever I pass this street, the good memories
They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps
After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
How about you?
The people look only happy
It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness
I try to pretend that I’m not
but I keep thinking of you
After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
Tears fall
If I wait here,
will I be able to see you?
Then will I be able to tell you
how I feel right now?
Because I miss you, because I am missing you
That’s how I am, I only know you
Living without you makes me filled
with regret about everything
Because you’re not here,
because there are so many empty things
Again today, I long for that spot and
my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you
- See more at: http://kromanized.com/2012/03/23/%EB%B0%B1%EC%A7%80%EC%98%81baek-ji-young-%ED%95%9C%EC%B0%B8-%EC%A7%80%EB%82%98%EC%84%9Cafter-a-long-time-romanizedtranslated-lyrics/#sthash.Lcg314c8.dpuf

The talks we had as we looked at each other
The stories that only we knew
I guess I can’t erase them,
I can’t throw them away,
I can’t forget them
I look around these streets for the first time in a while
Whenever I pass this street, the good memories
They keep floating up in my head so I stop my footsteps
After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
How about you?
The people look only happy
It seems like I’m the only one left in loneliness
I try to pretend that I’m not
but I keep thinking of you
After a long time, I am here right now
Because I long for that time,
Though I tried to live without knowing,
I keep thinking about it
That’s how I am, it keeps coming into my eyes
The times we spent together, the memories -
they fall like stars
Tears fall
If I wait here,
will I be able to see you?
Then will I be able to tell you
how I feel right now?
Because I miss you, because I am missing you
That’s how I am, I only know you
Living without you makes me filled
with regret about everything
Because you’re not here,
because there are so many empty things
Again today, I long for that spot and
my footsteps won’t move and I call out to you
- See more at: http://kromanized.com/2012/03/23/%EB%B0%B1%EC%A7%80%EC%98%81baek-ji-young-%ED%95%9C%EC%B0%B8-%EC%A7%80%EB%82%98%EC%84%9Cafter-a-long-time-romanizedtranslated-lyrics/#sthash.Lcg314c8.dpuf